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"title": "La muerte en México",
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"body": "Quizá una de las cosas más especiales y representativas de México es que somos un país, un colectivo que carga con respeto a la muerte en las orillas de la veneración.\n\nLa muerte es algo a lo que no le tenemos miedo, porque no hay tal cosa como soledad, incluso aunque la persona ya no exista en esta realidad colectiva es siempre acompañada, en esta vida y en la que sigue.\n\nLo que quiero decir es que la simple creencia y acción de día de muertos, de que el alma y/o espíritu permanece de alguna manera, tanto la tradición como la forma mental de la representación de lo que es el día de muerto, es lo que crea la realidad misma del día de muertos y de ese acompañamiento después de la muerte y por eso es que no se siente esa soledad, y es por eso que existe esta confianza en el más allá y por eso no hay temor ni veneración, sino respeto a la misma, de ahí viene, de la comprensión de la muerte y del mito real que nos hemos creado.\n\nEste nexo con la muerte crea un portal a lo sobrenatural, parte del misticismo de México también se origina ahí.\n\nPero la cristiandad ha roto o debilitado nuestro pasaje al mictlán, porque el mito, el imaginario después de la vida colectivo ha cambiado por el parásito de la cristiandad.\n\n_¿Y dónde están los alebrijes?_",
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"body": "Quiero compartir mi realidad contigo, pero antes de hacerlo quiero estar seguro de que es algo que tú también deseas. Quiero que sea una unión, no un arrebato.\n\nThe question is... do you want to share yours with mine?",
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"body": "Just realized I want to make a world for people that don't exist, and if we do, we certainly are a minority, aren't we? The ones that scream and wish only for freedom.",
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"title": "Confianza",
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"body": "Supongo que es una forma de certeza\nY una promesa sin serlo, una promesa al aire, que no se dice\nNo es algo que se pida ni que se otorgue\nEs algo que existe por sí mismo, que nace de la interacción\nY, por lo tanto, siempre requiere de un otro\nNo se puede confiar en un algo, porque no hay una reciprocidad\nSolo existe una confianza cuando hay una promesa silente detrás\nY solo aparece cuando la promesa se cumple\nY es por eso por lo cual es tan profunda\nPor eso nos afecta tanto como individuos\nPorque está conectada al corazón, pues no es solo algo emotivo\nDe hecho, el que sea emotivo proviene del proceso de unión\nPorque al romperla se deshace la realidad compartida\n\nAnd attachment to the world.\nThis post is about women.",
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"body": "La gran tarea, lo complejo, de lo que me doy cuenta justo ahora, es que la única forma de vencer, de generar un cambio y una revolución verdadera no es solo eliminando el dinero de la mente colectiva. Si no sustituyéndolo por otro lenguaje, uno verdaderamente humano que nos permita comunicarnos más que con números.",
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"body": "La luz del viento\n\nMe gusta hablar de la noche porque es lo que mejor entiendo y lo más cercano a mi mente, pues cuando cierro los ojos, no veo en blanco.\n\nSin embargo, hoy no escribiré sobre la noche. Pues todo el evento fue uno diurno, incluso aunque lo este relatando ahora en la madrugada.\n\nLas hojas caen y un gran periodo de letargo se aproxima, pero no se siente real, se siente distante, ajeno, y aún así no se pierde del horizonte mismo. Y es así no por la ya letargada luz del verano o por el sol del otoño, es porque hay otros brillos en el mundo, o consciamente en lo que veo o en lo que vi hoy, no fue un amanecer, pero si un destello, quizá incluso de una esperanza perdida a la que ya era yo ciego, de una chispa que creí ya no existía, una bella rareza, una reina de la primavera enmedio del ocaso del año, ahí enmedio de todo y fuera de lugar, pero no perdida, al contrario, era lo extraordinario lo que la marcaba.\n\nAsí que no fue el sol lo que me deslumbró este día, y no fue una luz cálida ni tenue, fue una luz vívida, no flameante como la del fuego pero con el mismo vigor de esta. Era luz viva, o la luz de la vida, del mundo, del universo, la flama que pasa por tu cuerpo pero que no quema, la flama que es líquida, que pasa por las venas, no la sangre sino el viento mismo, el aire, la fuerza que se siente al correr, al hablar, al gritar, al pintar al ser y el existir... al brillar, y esa luz tuya es la más deslumbrante que hay en el mar del azar.\n\nY yo solo la observaba desde una posición distante incluso aunque estuviera cerca de ella, no por querer alejarme o distanciarme, por ser yo el portador de la noche, pues de hecho las estrellas solo se ven brillar en la oscuridad. No, tengo muchas capas tan abultadas que no me permiten bailar, incluso aunque fuera lo único que quisiera hacer, un claroscuro de verdad.\n\nTodo son imágenes, ¿Qué es lo que ves?",
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"body": "Hay varias verdades en el mundo, y así mismo consenso multitadinales, pero tambien existe cierta perspectiva de uniformidad, pero como puede esta existir si no hay un visor central, es entonces la forma cohesiva de las _leyes_ naturales nada más que palabrería?\n\nY sin embargo no puedo dejar de escribir, pero no puedo escribir lo que en verdad quería.",
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"body": "Sin sueños, sin viento\nLa marea azul sin aliento\nUn último suspiro de libertad\nEs la muerte final en verdad",
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"body": "Las noches raramente están en silencio\nAullidos de dolor y sombras\nPasión y euforía más allá del velo del crepúsculo\nEn la monotonía de los días uno descansa\nPero es no tambíen una monotonía el propio despertar\nQue hay más haya del sombrio día\nY de la tan tardía noche\n¿Es qué no hay nada más que luz y oscuridad?",
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"body": "Un mundo con una paz absurda\n\n¿Qué sería de mi vida siguiendo la de otros, que sería la realidad sin voluntad?\n\nMi deber, mi querer ha sido uno de libertad, no solo para mi sino para todo individuo, quiero verles ser y florecer, quiero una realidad personal e interna nunca antes compartida, quiero ver que hay más allá de todas nuestras mascaras.\n\nPero, siempre desde que esta visión vino a mi me he preguntado como hacer esta realidad ocurrir, más importante aún manteniendo su libertad, pues ¿no es la imposición de mi visión una privación de su capacidad de elección?\n\nLo he descifrado, por una única y última vez voy a transgredir mis propios principios, para y por la paradoja, haré mi voluntad propia e individual una realidad en otros, pero esta verdad será una de libertad, una reinterpretativa, la realidad del querer, del deseo y del otro, la realidad empática del reconocimiento, la última verdad ejercida por otro, solo una única vez transgredida para hacerla existir... pues de otra manera como siquiera podría atreverme a llamarme humano.",
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"body": "A dream, “Fiesta Sideral”\n#dreamjournal\n\nToday I dreamed approximately 14 hours, I was exhausted from the week and I wanted and felt like resting. That being said I had at least 10 dreams this night of which I only remember the most, the last one which is the one I will relate now. Also, one thing to know is that I have never seen full metal alchemist.\n\nI was at a party, in a somewhat large apartment of what appeared to be a nice zone, but realistically I never really saw the outside, it just seemed with a really clean interior that was about to get all wasted.\n\nAnd so it did when I arrived there were already plenty of people none of whom I knew, the apartment was at least divided in 2 sections without considering rooms, in the first section there were people drinking talking parting a bit chill at most smoking some weed some, however in the next one it appeared to be a rave, people were way more active, they were dancing and many were on heavier drugs like acid or mdma, I got some acid, as soon as I did the dream starting shifting from something relatively normal to something extremely crazy.\n\nIt started like a story, like if we were on a camp just telling spooky stories, except they weren't really spooky, and we weren't really on a camp, I remember a guy with a long hair that I feel I have seen before somewhere in this _personal life_ he is the one relating the stories, and we are still like dancing in a circle, at some point people start leaving since it is getting late, like it would normally happen and just a few of us actually remain there, but it is still a sizable group, however things change now, something feels eerily more real than just a story being told, the room the scenery and the perception of all of us seems to change to what is being related, next thing I remember is that I am on a snowy place, there is snow falling a blizzard approaching, and I am in the near the top of the mountains, and I am not myself but another _me_, I am now Edward from Full Metal Alchemist. I immediately notice a presence, an hostile one, it seems to be another mage, it is Winry, she comes charging against me, running directly and with momentum, even making waves on the air and dividing it in two, with the movement creating wind itself, she is also carrying what seems to be a sword or a knife, pointing directly to me. I see determination on her face, a bit of rage and anger, but she doesn't seem to be blinded by it.\n\nThere are however other forces at work here, there is a huge shadow behind me as well as there is one behind her, as if we both had shadow familiars, mine is a tall corpulent man, with a smile that would remind you of All Might, on her end I couldn't discern but might as well be tsunade, it was not only then a battle involving only the two of us but also forces or beings that are somewhat related to us, I was a ready to charge because that other force was also completely ready, but it was not someone I could fight with, as such my shadow stood back and it was up to my force only, not the one of me and my shadow.\n\nShe hits me, I move my body from where she is about to hit me, and then I grab her hands, as soon as I do that there is like a flashback, now for whatever reason I see scenes from Naruto (that I have never actually watched btw), some with tsunade, some with Naruto growing up like in the first seasons, there is some advice and growing of both, but more importantly revelations like the bloodline they both carry, then we go back to the snow, she is stuck in her movement as well as me, astonished, I don't think that means we are related but, she drops her attack and I see something is off as well, not with her, but it seems like she was herself, but someone convinced her of attacking me. I also think, however, the flashback may be different from both of us, because for me, it didn't really change things. After that still with her knife on my chest we hug, but it is a symbol of trust since I am no longer grabbing her hands, she starts crying, and I still unsure what is going on just tighten my arms around her. There may be some things I am missing because I don't remember, but we are or feel together again.\n\nAs soon as that hug and union happens I am back at the party, there is the same people from when I left, except I think the long haired guy, or he is still there but no longer a principal character of the dream, there are some things happening now however and there is one other tall guy and someone that used to be my friend, they were before to, but I didn't give it any importance, now they were the center about a decision, and we were only guys now in the party, all the girls were either gone or sleeping in some of the rooms, there was some sort of challenge, however won or was the best could get to sleep with the girls, and the menace was a dark shinning shadow looming and entering the apartment, my ex friend mentioned something about a girl in another apartment and I immediately remembered my meeting in the snow, so I rushed to her and left them to decide.\n\nHer apartment was precisely the one in front of the party, I went through the dangerous shadows as if it were nothing and reached her, she was sleeping like knocked up or unconscious, and stayed there, I don't know if I woke her up or if I just stayed by her side, but I remained there either way for the rest of the dream.\n\nHowever, the dream now shifted to the other apartment, the decision was to either let the shadows engulf all or shut them over, they were uneasy of this decision since it is something that has already happened many times, the danger of the shadows, so my ex friend wanted them to take over just so it were different and see what would happen, the other guy would not allow that to happen however he was uneasy and sort of unsure of this since he knew that would just be repeating the same old story, either way they decided to rally and cast the shadows away. \n\nWhat happened after that is a story forgotten to me. 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It is a small monkey, often seen as too dumb or unreliable, and because of his size he is perceived as weak too even tho he hasn't lost a fight (not that he has been in many) he also seems less smart than other monkeys or the average, I wouldn't say dumb, but at least he certainly is slower, and he doesn't communicate or \"speaks\" a lot with others, which is the one of the reasons while everyone knows him he is not befriended by everyone.\n\nWithin the adversaries, there is a monkey girl that is the complete opposite of him, at least regarding mental qualities since she is by far the smartest monkey on the island and physically too, since she seems to be one of the most slim and thin monkeys there too. She has been an adversary since she and the strong monkey were little it started playfully and sort of remained that way, however there is something at stake in their challenges and struggle, it is in a sense preparation, all the competition, all the task they have done for the tribe since they were growing up meant and were from something, to achieve a goal.\n\nThere is a rite in the tribe, something only the bravest and more cunning may be part of, the ritual consist in an arrangement of stones that draws a circle, in the middle of it is a plate with a liquid, I don't remember if it was blue or black, maybe within that gradient. And with it, just in the middle there is the chieftain shaman, and there are other shamans around it (this is the only hierarchy). The main shaman is giving the liquid to whoever wants to be part of the trial.\n\nEach stone with symbols that form a face carved on it represent a primordial force or a pillar of the monkeys, it is what they value, one is raw unbridled strength, other is smartness, cunning, other is playfulness and joy, mental fortitude and awareness... there are other 2 that I have forgotten already, the ritual is celebrated to get a new representative of these values, an epitome in monkey society of cunning, strength and playfulness, and wisdom. The trial is designed to attest to how much of this quality the monkey that takes it actually has.\n\nHowever, this is not purely ritualistic, there are a mythical and mystical elements at play. Once the trial start, it is not done in this world, the monkey has to take a sip of the middle plate given by the shaman and then go to one of the spaces within the stones, as from within they convert into portals that go into another realm, one in which everything seems to be neon dark and dangerous, time works differently there as well as they can be years within as there is a second in monkey island. The trial often consist on finding something and retrieving it to their plane, but it is not done alone necessarily, as each entrance or portal gives to a different place within this other realm they are all still within the same place, other important detail to note is that the monkeys face various different obstacles that vary from terrain to entities living there that try to capture them or at least hinder them. Many die or at least are never seen on monkey island again, many others come back surrendering to the trial and not getting any qualification, only the once that retrieve the missing object are the ones worthy of a grade given by the virtue (spirit(?)) they represent.\n\nOur monkey goes in line to take the test, in front of him there is the girl monkey as well as many others, one by one they get into the dark realms, he drinks the sip and goes inside the dark pink violet portal, and immediately he is scorched by that realm, it feels inhospitable in every single sense, he wanders around for a bit dodging the tribulations making them disappear as if they were made of dust and smoke, it seems overall as if it was a dark version of the jungle they live in, like it has all the places and palms and bushes where they are supposed to be, but it is all a shadow in dark, he simply followed his instinct as to where to go, his own intuition and that took him to the monkey girl which was about to take a lost relic, but he also saw she was about to be attacked by a shadow monster, the monkey warned her, and she used a little item of her own invention to outcast the shadow, then, the girl with the item disappeared as well, before meeting her he met others, but they weren't in help-able situations, they were mostly just also wondering looking for clues, however they also seemed incredibly lost, but the monkey didn't know what to do since he didn't know how to make them snap of their own labyrinths, he was not the wise champion after all.\n\nAs he continued traveling the deserted dark island, he found one of the white gems or items, he took it and was immediately transported to his world, he was now on a row, behind some other monkeys, one of this was again the girl, he just stood there and waited patiently for his turn, however he noticed something, he has changes intrinsically, like if something inside him has awakened in that dark realm, he felt strength, rage, anger, power, absolute fortitude, as solid as a mountain, he wasn't thinking about it, but he was feeling all of it as he was walking up the row, another thing that he noticed is some sort of numbers on top of other monkeys, most of them were wearing zeroes, however the girl had a number, a higher one at least, but he didn't know which.\n\nHe saw which number the girl has as soon as everyone else knew as well, since it was her turn, the shaman granted her with a 3 out of supposedly 5 or 10 (getting a number is even hard to begin with, so this was good enough to be an icon), the girl did seem a bit angry and disappointed, but she was accepting it regardless, other two zeroes, and it was the turn of the monkey of this story, he was tired, not physically but of the whole ritual, he looked at the shaman in the most condescending manner, as suddenly he realized the unrightful control they had over all the other monkeys, since they were not even one of the icons, much less they would ever participated in any of the trials, he was furious when he saw they were all full of shit.\n\nThe girl was looking at him expecting it another zero, but the shaman was absolutely blown away physically and mentally, there wasn't a number for the strength of the monkey, then from my perspective I saw the number, it wasn't a number, it even overflowed the margin it was supposed to be in. And the monkey it seemed like he had an aura the same color as the dark realm, a neon dark of various different lights.\n\nThe final numbers were 3 5 4 and 000000000000000000 of the ones who returned, except of course the monkey.\n\nHe was declared ultimate protector by the shamans, and they said suggested and aimed the monkey society to be built around him. However, I don't remember if he punched them in the face, what I do remember is that there was something coming out of the central portal where the liquid with the plate was, I don't remember if it was the monkey itself or one shadow monster wanting to come out, either way it was him who closed that rift.\n\nThen I left, or did I close my eyes? 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"body": "And the angry man in the desert at the end of times\n\nWhen I spin, what my eyes come in touch with is an angry man, sometimes is a kid, but there is always so much suffering, so much pain, I feel, I hear, their perpetual scream of agony, but it doesn't make any sound, yet you feel it to the bone, in your soul, you don't need physical sensations to transmit emotions.\n\nThe man, last time I saw him was looking for something, for the whispers of my own mind and the ones of others, I see a green shirt, I see dark skin, but not from Africa, dark from our own \"America\", the blood of the natives, mixed and remixed turning his whole face and body into mud.\n\nHis eyes white as usual, but with a noticeable angst, he was looking for the whispers, he was looking for what the whispers commanded, but he couldn't find it and this manifested on his gaze, looking around everywhere, asking and asking, yet no answers, the veins on his eyes and his eyelids could be seen, the oppressive tiredness of uncertainty, igniting into frustration and rage\n\nWHERE IS IT WHAT DO YOU WANT ME TO DO\n\nBut again, no voices, just feelings and ideas in my head, in my mind as I slowly got into his mind, closer with each spin, each iteration, each loop... we weren't one, nor would I even want to. I was just trying to know what he felt, what he thought, I was trying to understand as I kept spinning my mind off. I was trying to understand why he kept wandering in his mind desolated, why he kept going, or rather and more importantly why are we looping. Came close, but to no conclusions, now however I know who he is, mentally at least.\n\nWas it the demiurge?\nIt would be too much, this just felt like a hurt child that grew up to a man, but maybe that is precisely what the demiurge is, at any rate it didn't feel as that “divine” serpent, it was just another human, victim of the endless uncertainty. But he was also angry and with a death intend, whole reality feels as if this was his last testament, like if he already died and we were feeling and living his nightmare, I saw we because I felt others, but I didn't see any faces other than his and the back of his body, laying on the ground as if he has been shot in the head.\n\nFulminated, deleted, but by who?\n\nMaybe he was too a proxy of the real demiurge, because after leaving the spin and going back to \"our\" reality I started noticing alchemical tampering with my whole environment and inside him I saw a spark of the divine, it wasn't light, but it had the feeling of light outside of our sun, not a physical light, but one you could feel, a trace outside of this world.",
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"body": "A creature past the end of time:\n\nThere is nothing and I have destroyed it all\nIdeas such as pride have lost all meaning now\nI don't see the light anymore because it doesn't exist\nThe darkness doesn't scare me, but there is the only thing that is\nI have faded into the darkness before, and I may do it again\nBut is it the void, not the nothingness... It doesn't matter\n\nOne on one I was entering different worlds, different souls\nDeath, was what came to them\nDamnation, ending of all they could even perceive\nNo colors, no songs, no cries or voices, not even silence was spared\nIt was like an urge, like a hunger to consume\nBut I wasn't getting anything, I wasn't consuming\nInstead, I just killed it, I erased it\nIt got a hold on me, it just pushed me to end it all\nTo end me?\nI don't know, and to be honest I don't know if that would even be possible\nSince I exist outside of existence\nIn other words, I don't, I am just the ending\nI can only \"exist\" when nothing does\n\nI grabbed many necks and they all shattered\nI didn't feel it, I wasn't happy, I wasn't angry\nI always feel their pain, and I always cry\nIt was what needed to happen, it was their finale\nI was never able to stop destiny\nI could never stop myself\nWhat are your eyes that do not see?\nWas I a puppet to of the orders outside of life and death\nCelestial realms, always playing with everyone as toys\nAnd I was too not spared\n\nBut I cannot say it didn't satisfy me\nThat is the most wicked truth\nI may have been led and controlled even\nBut the killing, I thrived on it\nI loved the blood on my face, always covering my body\nThe last exhalations of prey\nThe thrill of the hunt\nOf the running\nOf the persecution\nViolence and ultraviolence\nNot singing but in complete awe and shock at my brutality\nAnd I saw it in their eyes too, they enjoyed it\nThe last moments of life\nThe climax of their existence\nAll delivered by me\nThe ending was always in flesh\nStray souls being devoured\nThe colors, the clouds, the wind, the sole ideas\nAll of them begone, into nothing\nEven space, even time",
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"body": "A group of people that shouldn't be alive\n\nI have this idea, kinda forgotten now, but it came out of a feeling, a feeling of death, or rather a place where everyone is dead or should be, but they are just carrying on with their lives, their monotonous tasks, why? Why does this place exist? What are souls doing here? Or maybe... there are no souls existing in this desolate place, at any rate I forgot and lost the original idea, and it feels like crap, like a dissonant song in the back of my head, not a noise, not strident, but the quietness of incompleteness.\n\nThey are not zombies, but they seem like some.\n\nThen I remembered another group of people, those that did not die, but should have, and yet exist, some outsiders, some lucky, some protected by the thread of destiny. It does not matter, I see them in the dark, just roaming around in the caressing void of my palm, sometimes I whisper to their ears, sometimes I just contemplate their little orb of being, my pets? My friends? My soul. They swim in it and they fly. They are alive. they shine like the stars.\n\n...\n\nIf I ever remember, I will share it as soon as I do.",
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"body": "I pinched my hand again in an attempt to feel something, the needle was running with my own hot red blood, I wonder often if I am a machine, people often say machines don't feel, the sad thing is I know exactly why I can't feel, my numbness comes from pain, is like if my heart has burned so hard it is now carbon and even if it were to come out as a diamond it would still be the hardest thing, try to get in, try to make it a scratch, to even break it, nothing, it will only make your own heart bleed.\n\nThat's only side one of the disc however, is it disk or disc? What is really the difference? I am not researching that, now deep into the night by tomorrow morning I have to deliver a couple of reports on some lectures, but I can't make myself feel anything, no motivation, no anything, before it used to be fear of my parents, of living in the streets of a dark future, now in the precipice what is the most enticing to me is death, I don't see a reason to keep going, I have a girlfriend but I don't even know how to love, I have a life, I have a family, I have friends, but there is absolutely nothing that makes me feel alive, the only thing I have ever had is my own heart, my burning will, but now that I have extinguished myself, now that even the carbon burns what do I even do? What can I do? I can't touch other people because I am trapped in my sphere, I even thought I could write about this and make something worthwhile of my excistence but my brain doesn't even have the capacity to pull it off, most I can do is this small pages and parragraphs of my depressing thoughts, nothing to actually put in a book, no memories, no structures, I can't make chains of ideas because I hate chains, yet this is one, they come when I less realize it, I wouldn't be surprised if in some years I had absolutely everything and I still couldn't feel anything, the reason I am where I am right now is because I want to feel, to learn about my own mind, learn how to live, but once I am in here what I found is the dullness of existence once again, and this is my own problem because I am not making it better, but really I don't care for making it better because I don't care about anything, not even my own life, again in the abyss, and I can't come out of it because I am the abyss myself.\n\n... A dream lantern? Maybe, but I can't feel it, nor it, nor anything, wish I never existed, and not only now but various times, but I can't die quite yet because I don't even have the will to die, but I don't want to live either, is this how you become undead?\n\nAm I already a zombie that hasn't figured it out? Is this that land.. I wonder, it is draining me, sucking me alive, how can people even live like this, in this?\n\nHours pass by and I am still in this void doing nothing, why do anything is something I have convinced myself of and I can't really see it wrong. Where is my inspiration, where is my muse, where is my life? Will her even make me feel alive or am I too far gone to be a human?\n\nI want to sleep again, but I won't even be able to do it, my eyes close but my mind persists, why can't I do anything?\n\nI feel something is missing, even in this text, care to tell me what?\n\nIs it life really just lying to yourself until you die? I really can't do that either.\n\nAnyway, coming back to what sparked all this \"reflection\", I know I have to deliver this report, it is something that I actually need to do to even learn too, I skipped the one from last week, I shouldn't be skipping this, the work is even already half done, I could do it in like an hour or a couple, and is a theme that actually interests me... so then why can't I bring myself to do it? Why am I writing this crap instead of dealing with my responsibilities, why do I have the will to do this which is also writing and even more exhausting than just paraphrasing what other person said, I think I know why in an epiphany just now; I can't do repetitive tasks, I am not an automaton that receives information and turns it into something else, into a regurgitation or interpretation of that information, I can only do that when it is information that concerns me, which I am bound to or related to, an intermediary institution and authorities can't create or link that bond in me, that's why I don't feel it, I know the reason but that doesn't unburden me, in square one I find myself again, but wiser of my own actions.\n\nAll this being said, if I can't go to sleep in the next few minutes I will probably make these damned reports.",
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"body": "A dream: The mist\n#dreamjournal\nFor some reason tonight I dreamed with a lot of people with Asian features, some others were Latinos, I was in like a job but I wasn't really working, my mates and I were cyclically going to a store that was also like a place dinner place, but not quite a cafe, and there it was a girl that always attended us, and some other coworkers of her, and some other of our friends waiting by the tables. They were my elementary and middle school friends that I never talked with since I left school behind. Rarely I thought about them as well, in the city that we were it was very generic yet not any place I could remember, block buildings, some shorts some high, but mostly short, it was a small city with various colors per locale but they were dimmed, opaque.\n\nAs days passed I saw less and less of my people in the city, at first nor I nor anyone noticed until we saw the mist, it was a silver cloud, very slowly moving towards the city, what we and how we saw it was from the edge of the town, it was like an oasis of existence in a desolate desert, of thought, the dark fog was engulfing everything, in the horizon, there was no separation between the sky and the sand, the mist was the only thing that there was for a gradient of \"dreams\" and color.\n\nPeople were leaving or disappearing also gradually, one on one or per small groups until one day there only was the brunette girl of the store, and like one of two friends waiting and 3 that were still with me, it was all so ominous, we all knew something was happening but we still did our same routine, it was odd, it was weird because it was something also that couldn't be ignored, the girl was feeling feeble that day, next day she wasn't even there and the mist was already within the city, on our last round we went to visit her and met with our friends but they were all missing, except one that joined us before meeting there, we talked all nervous and anxious for the future, we step out of the store, the mist is all around us and only thing we can see is a pickup, we move towards it. I wake up.",
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"body": "A dream \"The penguin and the cycling princess\"\n#dreamjournal\n\nI dreamed way mor but what I remember the most is this last bit.\n\nI was in a bus that goes into my town, its service of public transport, it was night and he had a very very bright light for lamp, the blinding type. So it kinda fucker with everyone that saw it, it was very annoying, I was in the back of the bus with a chick of fedi I will not say who we were pretty much chilling until we noticed commotion in the front and the rest of the bus, there was some cyclists in front of the bus that didn't let it move past it, and the cyclists was very slow compared to the bus, the bus driver started to turn off and on its light to notice it but the cyclist didn't gave a fuck, or more than that it wasn't even receptive to it, the cyclist also had a blinding ligth on his bike, and then something in the driver changed or he remembered something and stopped using the brightest light but started using one that was barely seen, it was like if he became conscious about how annoying it was his light. For me this was cool but odd so I decide to investigate this cyclist, I get out of the bus and get into my bike that just kinda appears, all in the move.\n\nNext thing I know I am cycling along the mysterious cyclist and it seems just to be a guy in a race, and I am now to in this race, it seems to be about a circuit around the town but it is actually whoever reaches a destination or point wins, this dude seemed normal at first so I don't bother with him and keep pushing forward and faster, I met a lot of others including fedi people I pass by them, not hard feelings attached, and it is kinda chill until I reach the last part of the racetrack, in here I seem to be the first and victory is afoot, however the first dude from before tags along me and doesn't let me go any faster its like he were limiting me somehow and he puts himself just aside from me, maybe I am still a bit ahead, I don't like it at all but I didn't realize I had been handicap in this way so I was trying and trying to go faster with no result. As we keep moving more people tag along us, a lot of fedi people include it, all under his spell, so it creates a massive crowd of cyclists that shouldn't be that together at all, they are too close prone to stumble upon one another and making a mess, but oddly enough this isn't happening everyone maybe with the sligh exception of me and some others is driving/cycling like in perfect coordination, then a chant is started to be heard, everyone is praising and calling his name, geranibro, genaro, gonaro, I don't remember exactly now, but it makes me realize he made them all like zombies with no will of their own, so they can't control their bikes nor their actions, they are now his, there are a bit of other people that realize this and struggle to bike, one of this people is the fedi gal from the bus now also cycling, maybe he was with me all the way upon here but I didn't realize.\n\nWe are quite close to the ending line now, I won't let all people arund me become mindless zombies even tho this dude is still letting me win, I give one last look and smile to the girl and jump to the genaribro bike taking us both from the competition, everyone passes by us now on the ground as as they pass the spell is lifted, me and geranibro stay there he lays defeted I remain with a bittersweet victory.\n\nThere is an epilogue to the dream when Gunther from adventure time seems to have been the winner on the race and he is like in a throne in a moon with a sight directly to space, there is the fedigirl trying to reason with the retarded devilish penguin but with no success, she offers him choices or ways to proceed in any given matter like in a council but the small mf just breaks all glasses he sees. The girl as she ended second she is like second in command, and as as the penguin is a penguin unable of reason he makes no decisions, the girl the actual Queen of the galaxy. The penguin however as he doesn't care about anything just lets everyone do their own so in this sense at least freedom is guaranteed. ",
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"body": "Hypnogaia\n\nSitting alone in the dark, lost in thought you remember the place beyond, a clear bright place beyond human eyes, not to be seen, but to be felt, you close your eyes, small glimpses of it came back to you, you don't see this place, you don't see it your eyes but with your own mind, a dream to be lived.\n\nYet gaia, the whole living planet you see her too in your dreams and in her bast lands, all this world is her and about her, she doesn't let you leave, she melts your brain with her hypnotic senses, her melodies, her smells, her touch, her taste, her astonishing views, but most importantly her ideas made reality. \n\nHow to create paradise on Earth? What is even paradise for you? Looking in your heart made of wind, the breeze around all the world inflates a hurricane raises only to be dissolved in the air, everchanging destiny, you in my place, but this speaks too with my own soul, you aren't me, my ideas aren't yours, I am my own, always a problem to the hypnotic grass of thought, I don't know what you are or what am I but I can handle the elements too, a dialogue was opened and we are both now talking, how long will it last? I will not be hypnotized by earthly desire.\n\nAnd yet I have a splinter of love piercing through all my soul, the time its now and I won't let it become the past as I am for the outside looking here on my reflection where is my live's direction... and I am on the outside looking in to where have I been?\nNow say the truth for crawling and I am falling, I have seen the truth... the outside, looking in...\nFrom the outside looking in...\n\nHer song still ringing in my ears making its way to my soul, but I am fully awake now and look her back straight into the eyes, I am the dark caring void.",
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"body": "My mind completely in blank. The white cascade, waterfall made ice, flow of ideas stop, but yet chaos lies dormant within, I see it because it exists and I am writing this, a lesson, yet another, to be learn, follow your impulses, follow the stream, when you feel like writing, when you feel like doing literally anything, just fucking do it. Embrace the moment, embrace the present as it is the only thing that with certainty I can tell exists.\n\nCome with me, feel the flame of your own heart, an lets raise hell on this already forsaken earth, and give phoenix its birthplace.",
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"body": "A parable?\n\nThe sun is at its zenith, my body is heated and dumped in sweat, such are the troubles of physical bodies, my mind is slowly losing its own composure, I need water, I know only of one place that can help me with my dilemma, but going there is pricey as its keeper always whistles a riddle, knowing this I prepare for the bath on mana.\n\nIt is a bit different than what I remember, a couple of centuries do have its toll in even already ancient ruins, she is there Maya, as ever wary of the intruders of her Oasis, but she knows me and my soul, I am not exactly a friend but we have had our talks about eternity before. She notices me in her roaming for an entrance into her white and pristine but forgotten and avoided temple, people always have a hard time facing the truth. A pillar rolls over and lets me pass, she is aware of me, I fool around a bit \"Oh Oracle of the deep seas I come to you when I am most in need\". A rumble is heard behind me, the entrance is sealed - come closer harlequin, her voice now sounds like a tired old woman, I wonder what happened to her.\n\nI approach with a smile, how are you Maya? the female statue has seen much better days, she has an arm completely missing now and looks down on me with her frugal and candid orange glowy eyes, she and her usual sight of fire, as her temple her statue is white and also thoroughly deteriorated with a lot of green moss haltingly growing around her structure. The days one by one have long passed and we are now at the nightfall of our lives Dimator.\n\nI can't get old I say - its not about the body, it is about the mind, your current state will soon cease to exist as will mine. I drink from the pool and she starts telling her story as I meld into the visions induced by the mana.\n\nIt feels like if I were falling from the cloudy sky but I feel no wind, and no weight there is only a slight sensation of vertigo and release I recover my vision and I am in a blank space, but this isn't nothingness, I hear her voice it is a riddle, it is a maze, it is anger flowing through my veins again, what was pulsating, the ardent sun was my own rage, the cool and calming mana has allowed me to see this, but why am I raging? Oblivion, the same oblivion that all beings must face, not death in my case, but being forgotten forever, even an eternal and immortal being, not even the legends may survive once I am gone from this world, me and Maya know this, my own precence here was predestined, one last goodbye.\n\nI open my eyes, woken up by a chilling breeze, I see the full moon on her brightest, illuminating all the pond and giving the ruins a cosmic shine, I turn to look upon the statue of my old friend, her eyes no longer shine, the arm that she has left is pointing to the skies, and her hand just below the moon as if she was holding it. I rest laying in ground and lose myself into the dark void within the stars, cold and beautiful as my own being and desires. My brief experience in this world comes to an end as my body merges with the stars. Farewell Maya.",
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"body": "A dream \"Finn and Jake, beyond the lands of dreams\"\n#dreamjournal\n\nIt was so shakening I woke up repeatedly and went back to sleep to the same dream like twice.\n\nI am Finn, but also kinda see or perceive their reality as an spectator as you would if you watching tv OE something, but instead of using a device I was living it first hand through the dream, my perception then was the dream itself and Finn.\n\nMe and Jake have been wandering on Ooo for longer than we can remember, time in mental spaces is not quantifiable, all you have is your perception of things happening but not time itself, as time there doesn't really exist as a palpable force, it is more like qn abstract idea you can think of and interact with (this applies to all mental spaces, you can see it in animation too). 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There it was this being, it was like one of the gems of Steven Universe, colored by different tones of turquoise all around her body, I don't remember if she had a normal face with two eyes and the eyes had diferent tones with darker turquoise in the center or if she had a vertically rotated cube as her head, either way she was one of the less notable beings in the tabern, there were all kinds of shapes and forms of adventurers there, it was a safe place for resting and also for partying, at that the tabern shifted into a saloon for that very reason, and the turquoise gem felt out of place contrary to me and my buddy.\n\nWe get out and continue our jorney through ooo, there are deserts, pink gems all moving and laying around, constructs of them like temples, dense and macabre forest as well as joyful ones, yet even in our journey to see our friends we sense the dread and void of nothing ever happening. Even as we get into enchanted ruins and pillage them for treassure once our euphoria and thrill for discovery is gone after we raided it we are met with that solid wall of inactivity, the oddest thing is that in all our travels we see everyone having fun and the time of their lives, they are so full of themselves even being around them feels like being around an full of life and energy sun, I begin to question our senses, our feelings, why aren't we having fun? This are questions that roam my mind but I dare not ask my companion. \n\nEventually after visiting two or three other friends we arrive at a valley that is also like a desert it changes between states of grass and sand, and sometimes it is both at the same time, we didn't expected to see anyone there and there weren't living anyone that I know of, we were just passing by, yet we met someone, it was the gem lady from before, she seemed exactly the same and it was an odd encounter so we approached, then in the dream I began to experience things as the dream not Finn, the gem was also inquiring about its own life, not in an existential sense but also wondering, \"is this all there is? This is pretty lame\" as she was indeed very new to that world too, then she heard a voice that was not a voice, and it speak in not words but knowledge directly transfered into her, the voice had a message only for them both to listen to, but the attitude on the gem immediately changed, and her eyes now flourished with joy in realization of the understandment she gained about that world, as this was happening Finn and Jake were approaching from behind, for them no voice was heard at all. Now being back to Finn I realize something is going on, and as we come closer the gem starts talking with the voice but I don't hear the voice at all, she says excitedly \"Amazing! interdimensional planes exist out of the boundaries of time and space\" and she fucking dissappears as if she was crossing through a portal but there was no visible portal, her body just gradually stopped being visible, in awe and shock we run up the small hill or dune she was on to aid her or see what happened and on top we see that on the valley there is like a face also made of the same gems (this actually shiny gems, not the color only) I assume this thing is somewhat related to her, and makes me wake up irl and within my dream and awakening I realize that it is probably the origin of the voice she talked to.\n\nAnd then I had an epiphany, everyone has an adventure, even that gem seemingly so out of place was called to our world and to that very spot for very specific reasons, for events to unfold. On ooo the adventure world we have a journey to fulfill and to live too, we just haven't been living it, we are not when we are supposed to be, where our adventure lays and is wating events to unfold around us. We go back to our house that is Jake's house, and we get all our stuff ready, meaning we take all the shit we could use in an adventure and bag it, I am fucking euphoric, finally this world makes sense there is an adventure, an story to unfold and it is calling only me, and I realize this as the exaltation of my companion dimishes, he as unhinged as I was now is with a inexpressive eyes, and I remember that I just saw one of his kids running around the home, he had another realization, he can't go on an adventure with me because that's not what his heart desires the most, what his heart desires the most is his family, and the faceless expression is because he realized he made that decision a lot time ago, and I with a sight of compassion and understandment realize this too, these are my dreams after all, not his, but I keep packing my stuff and give my best friend in this world the tightest of hugs, candid, as this is also a goodbye forever. A smile in sorrow and sadness \"Goodbye Jake\", and with my backpack full I clean my tears and open the first door jumping straight into my destiny.\n\nThe film deteriorates as if it were an old movie burning and las frames are of finn sleeping in some coffin-sarcophagus in the middle of space, being the very last of the frames the sarcophagus closing. Once that sequence is over the credits roll and you see machinery, giant swords and gears all moving slowly in a giant fabrication. In between of them there are all heroes, but the one I catch an eye on is spiderman, just laying in his iconic pose atop of the edge of a curved huge pipe going to the ground and I wake up.",
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"body": "A dream \"Leap\"\n#dreamjournal\n\nI arrived to a home, it was like in a second floor and there was the red balck and white room of a girl, with her bed and some heart shaped pillows and teddies, it wasn't s clean room but that was because there wasn't a clean woman sleeping inside of it, it was a young woman, I don't remember if a redhead or not but she has natural freckels on her face, but she also had a lot white of bumps, in my stay there I noticed those bumps burned with water, and she screamed it caused her so much pain. \n\nOutside of her room there it was a living room a sofa in the middle of a corridor, a table going forwards on it until you reached another room, one of the parents room, because you see they had two, one room just adjacent to hers and the other on the other side of the corridor, her parents sometimes slept together and some others separated in these rooms. She had a sister too but I never saw her or where she was staying until the very end.\n\nI often ended up sleeping in her room although not with her, there passed like these a lot of nights and we begun taking affection and care for each other, we acknowledged our dreaded situations, how much our life sucked, I was a timeless wanderer, unable to find any meaningfull connection due to my reason and she was trapped by the shadow of her parents and we found solace in the tragedy of our situations. \n\nThey did took her bumps every now and then, specially her dad, it was with some kind of rain or a plain bucket straight up to her face and she always screamed in pain, I was never in her room when that happened, it happened twice in my stay, once I was able to remain hidden, and after it was done I got into her bedroom, but she was always in pain under her sheets. The second time was after her family discovered me and they made me sleep in the living room sofa. But it was already too late our bond was too strong for it to be broken only by distance and we were willing to make sacrifices for the other. Our bond strengthened the first time we had sex, I don't remember exactly, and I don't remember her face because it was very dark, and my memory about its cloudy, but I remember the passion, the anger, the love, the pain, the hope. I have the sensations of the emotios that arose as she was on top of me riding me, caring for me, it was warm in the soul and in the body, and only thing I could do is give back.\n\nTime passed after that, we were no longer strangers and have grown in each other hearts. One day, when I was discovered it was by his dad, he surprisingly wasn't mad at me, on the contrary he was glad his child could ever find someone so he was very kind to me, as well as her mother was, but she was still doubtful and wary of me, for her I was just yet another male waiting to inflicted pain. 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Their relationship with their kids was one of a master and a slave, it was not a family but a dictatorship, and the rulers were a neurotic mess, the will of the children were never met because the will of the parents forever trespassed it, in result my girl and her sister were always a shell of emotions with a soul buried within mask and mask of parental images, they weren't themselves, they were just beings trying to please their parents.\n\nAnd even then I thought there was some validity to her suffering, I thought maybe taking away the bumps was a good idea for her health, that was until the last day, that his dad came in anger armed with a water filled bucket and poured it all in rage on a single move, I heard her agonizing pain, she ended up running out of her room, out of the bulding, out in the street, she was gone, and I was in anger and pain now, I saw her parent slowly coming out of the room, self absorbed in pride, then I noticed the very same bumps on his face and I understood, it wasn't about her, it was about him and seeing his own faulty reflection on her, I don't think he hated himself but I do think he never accepted himself and he wanted her daughter to not be him, but that was something impossible.\nAs he was comming out he saw me, he saw the pain if my eyes, the pain I had for her, then he approached me with a condescending attitude, almost as if drunk, then just as he was just in front of me, face to face, a firealrm silently went off and water started raining from the ceiling, and it was water all flowing through his wretched face full of bumps, but there wasn't even a pinch of pain, then the bit of pity I had about him erased, he wasn't feeling for her dauther as I was, he was just inflicting her pain but he wasn't even seeing nor understanding what he was doing, it wasn't for her or for him anymore, it was a behavior whose meaning was lost to him, very much like modern traditions, he wasn't holding a void, nor emptiness, he was no zombie even and he had no soul anymore to reflect, just another automaton. 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"body": "Read the tide\nSurf above\nDive below\n\nIt is always dark\nIs it an infinite darkness?\nA dragon soul screaming in the wild\nI feel like I am loosing it all\nSweetest prison, sweetest cell\nA wrenching roar\nIt hurts, all my vision now in black and grey\nOnly thing I feel now is pain\n\nWill I be able to save her?\nI am now blind and broken\nAnd silence as usual is all I get\nHow do we change?\nHow do I change?\nAre things stale because I am not changing?\nIs the silence made by my own inaction?\nAll I hear is my muted screams into the void\n\nIt looks similar but it isn't the same\nThey are echoes of different events\nOf different worlds, of different lives\nAnd way even beyond of that\nIn the sea of the unseen, I see her\nSlips of what I think is her\nIs this just me associating or is this real\nI lay defeated in my bed remembering the past days\nAnd there is no one to lay beside me\nAll, really truly alone in my echo-chamber of emotions\n\n\"I know who you pretend I am\"\n\"Why not me?\"\n\"Why not me?\"\n\nThere is no or else\nThere is no looming threat\nThere is only the now\nStripped of all clothing, of all masks\nWhat is the thing that remains\nWhen there is no you anymore\nWhat is your essence?\nWhat is your spirit?\n\n\"I\" transcend, but there is no I\nConcept of persona is no longer important\nIt no longer exists, yet something does\nThe spirit, the soul, which is not another ego\nThere is only the mind \nThere are no limits\nImagination takes away my dissolved being\nAnd from a total perspective into one I come again\nBut I am now another, I am not what I used to be\nI changed, I ceased to be and I was again\nAnother ego, another persona\nThe ever shifting nature of the soul\nYet it being the only thing that remains constant\nIts own change\n\nYet the question remains\nCan I save her of her own mind?\nI am willing to do it, I always was\nI exist for no reason\nI am a wildcard, always was\nThat is my role\nThat is my spirit\nFreedom\nUncertainty\nFear\nChaos\nAwe\n\nThere is no destiny, there is nothing set\nOh fearful star, what are we gonna do now?\nI am saving her or am I just making it worse?\nShould I just let go?\n\nIn reality my saving are just my own ideas\nBut are not others ideas already a influence\nI have doubts about me and my path.. but\nI trust my body\nI trust my nature\nI trust my guts\nI trust my will\nI trust my spirit\nI trust my world and my ideas\nThey are my own\nI reached them through experience\nIt is my mental world\nIt is a senseless mess\nBut it is not a bought ideology\nAnd even less it is a stapled construct\nIt is personal\nIt is human\nIt is not an established institution\nCan they say the same?\n\nI trust myself, but I am lacking conviction\nI need something else\nSomething is missing\nMy strength\nWhy is it missing?\nHow do I get it back?\n\nMaybe another sight\nAt the marvels of eternity\nIs what is in place",
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"body": "The mistress of mystery\n\nShe is charming and daring, but she is a secret.\n\nMystery is only interesting as long as it is kept unknown, once it is revealed all her charm is lost.\n\nLet's talk about big foot. It being real or a complete hoax is irrelevant, its charm comes from its own uncertainty, once its veracity is settled the myth the legend dies and it is replaced by normality and commonality, it no longer revers awe and amusement, it is no longer a treat for the mind, a play and exercise of imagination, it transforms into just another thing we are \"sure\" of, a \"truth\" a \"certainty\".\n\nOh lady of secrets, oh Ino.",
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"body": "Reflexión\n\nEn los años recientes ahora que soy consciente de mi misma persona y en lo que va más allá de ella me he dado cuenta de todos los errores que he cometido en mi vida, o en otras palabras de todas mis oportunidades perdidas.\n\nSiento que tuve una infancia y una juventud desperdiciada o nunca llevada a cabo como debería haberlo hecho. Mi ser mi consciencia estaba solo enfocada en mi ego y sus designios, ignorando por completo las ansias de mi espíritu y mi propia alma, si hubiera realizado acciones distintas en el pasado, acciones que aliviaran mi alma y espíritu mi vida sería mucho más plena ahora, mucho más completa, habría vivido mi propia vida en profundidad y vigorosidad, me sentiría el día de hoy completamente vivo y con toda la fuerza de mi ser, en vez de la enclenque versión de mi que soy ahora... mi juventud arrebatada por mi mismo y mi propia cobardía.\n\nAveces tienes que hacer lo más contraintuitivo, lo más insensato, al margen de la locura para aliviar los anhelos de tu alma y espíritu, estos aveces gritan sangre y violencia y hay que dárselos, es lo natural, lo justo, las reglas que preceden al hombre y sus leyes, las reglas del universo, por las que todo lo que existe aquí es regido, lo que se siente bien y sacia el espíritu y el alma. Has entonces sólo lo que te haga sentir bien, pero debes saber que esto llamara al conflicto y estar preparado para ello. ",
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"body": "Visions of the Esher\n\nI am hardlocked. I see it clearly, I was defeated by my own curiosity, by my own fear and my own uncertainty, but in this defeat, although here in the musk I lie in a deep depression, I know I haven't lost, I still breathe, I am still alive and most importantly I am aware exactly of how to solve the nightmare I witnessed, and I also know what caused it at least to resurge in my last direct experience with the unconscious world, it was my own instability along with the difference of presence in each mind I was diving along with, it was something I was not planning and for which I was not prepared, yet I did felt that slight rush of people expecting something from me, that sight, that sensation I can't quite put a word on tingling all my spine.\nIt was also a testament of anger I rejected my anima and that was her revenge, I see it know thinking back in the events, and the dreams I have been having since them, which have been a way of reconciliation, I still don't know who is she, yet I feel from almost everyone people wanting me to make couple with people that aren't for me, they do not know that, they rather see me complacent with a any partner than with my missing partner, I know they mean well but it really just troubles me more.\n\nI am now just been tossed around like a bitch, stripped of all power, of all will, but is not really that, I am just experiencing, I am letting things happen because I haven't felt them before and only then once experienced I can tell if it is something I like feeling or not, for me there is really no other way to decide than knowing, this, is my gnosis.\n\nOne thing I long for however is true direct interaction in these matters and not the usual unaknowledging of the self, everyone always playing dumb, why? Even if you don't know what to say, that's exactly what you can and should say, honesty.\n\nThe hardlock now comes from my apparent defeat, from my state of mind, I am it the bottom and no one expects anything from me because I failed when I was supposed to shine, but if not me, my spirit always raises and rekindles, right now I am without my wings or rather without my eyes, and to fly and see again I must get out of my own darkness, as I said before I can still see, but those are not my proper eyes, would be like cheating, in my mind I can only properly get then back by also rising from the ashes in this world, meaning the kickstarter, the ember to rekindle hope comes from the actions of my body and ego in this world.\n\nI can give hope from and to myself right now with my fake eyes and invigorate me and revitalize me for what is to come or I could get up from my abyss in a month of constant focus and improvement. If I do the first and I fail in this world, that's it, I will be stripped from my own spirit, or it will rather leave and not be associated with me again, its like losing the core of your own soul... if I do the second one and succed I will be stronger and most certain than ever, if I fail my spirit may leave or not, but our bond will be damaged, but not completely striped nor broken, it may even shift and change but it won't be as drastic as the other. If I do rekindle my spark now and succed later it will elevate me but it won't be nearly as strong as it coming from my actions here. So with that in mind the best option seems for me to be focused here, at any rate what happened was a mistake on my end, if I think of all the other probabilities that could have occurred, still the optimal course of action is the focus on my current ego and body, I just, as I remember just now... fell into the ground, and are ready to get up again, and also as in that time, it was intentional now, mistakes were made and now is time to solve them. ",
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I don't care about him, the other girl the brunette is in pain still but she is no longer dominated by it, I sit with my ginger friend and the automaton while the others go to a little store that is close by I tell her I am lost about the brunette girl, that I know there is something and she knows as well but I don't know how to cut our breach, they know each other for a way longer time that I do, she the ginger was with the brunette in her child and teen ages, they are friends since then, I know this, but I didn't think about it, would you help me? (I think). 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