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It is always dark Is it an infinite darkness? A dragon soul screaming in the wild I feel like I am loosing it all Sweetest prison, sweetest cell A wrenching roar It hurts, all my vision now in black and grey Only thing I feel now is pain
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Will I be able to save her? I am now blind and broken And silence as usual is all I get How do we change?" />
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It is always dark Is it an infinite darkness? A dragon soul screaming in the wild I feel like I am loosing it all Sweetest prison, sweetest cell A wrenching roar It hurts, all my vision now in black and grey Only thing I feel now is pain
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Will I be able to save her? I am now blind and broken And silence as usual is all I get How do we change?" />
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<h1 class="!my-0 pb-2.5">Read the tide</h1>
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<time>Jun 10, 2021</time>
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<span class="mx-1">·</span>
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<span>Lumin</span>
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<section><p>Surf above
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Dive below</p>
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<p>It is always dark
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Is it an infinite darkness?
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A dragon soul screaming in the wild
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I feel like I am loosing it all
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Sweetest prison, sweetest cell
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A wrenching roar
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It hurts, all my vision now in black and grey
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Only thing I feel now is pain</p>
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<p>Will I be able to save her?
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I am now blind and broken
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And silence as usual is all I get
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How do we change?
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How do I change?
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Are things stale because I am not changing?
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Is the silence made by my own inaction?
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All I hear is my muted screams into the void</p>
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<p>It looks similar but it isn’t the same
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They are echoes of different events
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Of different worlds, of different lives
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And way even beyond of that
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In the sea of the unseen, I see her
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Slips of what I think is her
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Is this just me associating or is this real
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I lay defeated in my bed remembering the past days
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And there is no one to lay beside me
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All, really truly alone in my echo-chamber of emotions</p>
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<p>“I know who you pretend I am”
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“Why not me?”
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“Why not me?”</p>
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<p>There is no or else
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There is no looming threat
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There is only the now
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Stripped of all clothing, of all masks
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What is the thing that remains
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When there is no you anymore
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What is your essence?
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What is your spirit?</p>
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<p>“I” transcend, but there is no I
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Concept of persona is no longer important
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It no longer exists, yet something does
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The spirit, the soul, which is not another ego
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There is only the mind
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There are no limits
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Imagination takes away my dissolved being
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And from a total perspective into one I come again
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But I am now another, I am not what I used to be
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I changed, I ceased to be and I was again
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Another ego, another persona
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The ever shifting nature of the soul
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Yet it being the only thing that remains constant
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Its own change</p>
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<p>Yet the question remains
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Can I save her of her own mind?
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I am willing to do it, I always was
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I exist for no reason
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I am a wildcard, always was
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That is my role
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That is my spirit
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Freedom
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Uncertainty
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Fear
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Chaos
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Awe</p>
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<p>There is no destiny, there is nothing set
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Oh fearful star, what are we gonna do now?
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I am saving her or am I just making it worse?
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Should I just let go?</p>
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<p>In reality my saving are just my own ideas
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But are not others ideas already a influence
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I have doubts about me and my path.. but
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I trust my body
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I trust my nature
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I trust my guts
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I trust my will
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I trust my spirit
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I trust my world and my ideas
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They are my own
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I reached them through experience
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It is my mental world
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It is a senseless mess
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But it is not a bought ideology
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And even less it is a stapled construct
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It is personal
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It is human
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It is not an established institution
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Can they say the same?</p>
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<p>I trust myself, but I am lacking conviction
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I need something else
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Something is missing
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My strength
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Why is it missing?
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How do I get it back?</p>
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<p>Maybe another sight
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At the marvels of eternity
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