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<p>I want to fly with the ones I love, and I have the wings, but I don&rsquo;t know how to do it, it is, it feels sometimes, specially when I am not alone or with people I would trust my heart with&hellip; it feels as if I were stripped from my will, from my spirit to fly.</p>
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