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A dream, “Fiesta Sideral” #dreamjournal

Today I dreamed approximately 14 hours, I was exhausted from the week and I wanted and felt like resting. That being said I had at least 10 dreams this night of which I only remember the most, the last one which is the one I will relate now. Also, one thing to know is that I have never seen full metal alchemist.

I was at a party, in a somewhat large apartment of what appeared to be a nice zone, but realistically I never really saw the outside, it just seemed with a really clean interior that was about to get all wasted.

And so it did when I arrived there were already plenty of people none of whom I knew, the apartment was at least divided in 2 sections without considering rooms, in the first section there were people drinking talking parting a bit chill at most smoking some weed some, however in the next one it appeared to be a rave, people were way more active, they were dancing and many were on heavier drugs like acid or mdma, I got some acid, as soon as I did the dream starting shifting from something relatively normal to something extremely crazy.

It started like a story, like if we were on a camp just telling spooky stories, except they weren't really spooky, and we weren't really on a camp, I remember a guy with a long hair that I feel I have seen before somewhere in this *personal life* he is the one relating the stories, and we are still like dancing in a circle, at some point people start leaving since it is getting late, like it would normally happen and just a few of us actually remain there, but it is still a sizable group, however things change now, something feels eerily more real than just a story being told, the room the scenery and the perception of all of us seems to change to what is being related, next thing I remember is that I am on a snowy place, there is snow falling a blizzard approaching, and I am in the near the top of the mountains, and I am not myself but another *me*, I am now Edward from Full Metal Alchemist. I immediately notice a presence, an hostile one, it seems to be another mage, it is Winry, she comes charging against me, running directly and with momentum, even making waves on the air and dividing it in two, with the movement creating wind itself, she is also carrying what seems to be a sword or a knife, pointing directly to me. I see determination on her face, a bit of rage and anger, but she doesn't seem to be blinded by it.

There are however other forces at work here, there is a huge shadow behind me as well as there is one behind her, as if we both had shadow familiars, mine is a tall corpulent man, with a smile that would remind you of All Might, on her end I couldn't discern but might as well be tsunade, it was not only then a battle involving only the two of us but also forces or beings that are somewhat related to us, I was a ready to charge because that other force was also completely ready, but it was not someone I could fight with, as such my shadow stood back and it was up to my force only, not the one of me and my shadow.

She hits me,  I move my body from where she is about to hit me, and then I grab her hands, as soon as I do that there is like a flashback, now for whatever reason I see scenes from Naruto (that I have never actually watched btw), some with tsunade, some with Naruto growing up like in the first seasons, there is some advice and growing of both, but more importantly revelations like the bloodline they both carry, then we go back to the snow, she is stuck in her movement as well as me, astonished, I don't think that means we are related but, she drops her attack and I see something is off as well, not with her, but it seems like she was herself, but someone convinced her of attacking me. I also think, however, the flashback may be different from both of us, because for me, it didn't really change things. After that still with her knife on my chest we hug, but it is a symbol of trust since I am no longer grabbing her hands, she starts crying, and I still unsure what is going on just tighten my arms around her. There may be some things I am missing because I don't remember, but we are or feel together again.

As soon as that hug and union happens I am back at the party, there is the same people from when I left, except I think the long haired guy, or he is still there but no longer a principal character of the dream, there are some things happening now however and there is one other tall guy and someone that used to be my friend, they were before to, but I didn't give it any importance, now they were the center about a decision, and we were only guys now in the party, all the girls were either gone or sleeping in some of the rooms, there was some sort of challenge, however won or was the best could get to sleep with the girls, and the menace was a dark shinning shadow looming and entering the apartment, my ex friend mentioned something about a girl in another apartment and I immediately remembered my meeting in the snow, so I rushed to her and left them to decide.

Her apartment was precisely the one in front of the party, I went through the dangerous shadows as if it were nothing and reached her, she was sleeping like knocked up or unconscious, and stayed there, I don't know if I woke her up or if I just stayed by her side, but I remained there either way for the rest of the dream.

However, the dream now shifted to the other apartment, the decision was to either let the shadows engulf all or shut them over, they were uneasy of this decision since it is something that has already happened many times, the danger of the shadows, so my ex friend wanted them to take over just so it were different and see what would happen, the other guy would not allow that to happen however he was uneasy and sort of unsure of this since he knew that would just be repeating the same old story, either way they decided to rally and cast the shadows away.

What happened after that is a story forgotten to me. I do know my ex friend was gone from my dream and the other guy was coming for me.

One of the other things they discussed was time as well, since it was something that *already happened* time in some sense should be involved, and for some reason they tracked or deemed me responsible for the creation and maintenance of time, a task that is not mine even though I understand the construct entirely. The room was different from the guy than it was for me, he encountered a maze that he had to sort out, a sequence with different steps that from the top was resembling a squared spiral. When he finally reached me, he demanded me to end time, since from his eyes it was me who all time related inquiries should be delegated, I told him it is not me who keeps it going, but most importantly that he couldn't stop it not end it himself, since he did use time to get to where I was, at this point I remembered something about the party, I don't remember when but everyone that was on that other side at some point existed outside time and space, in what seemed to be the black of the void and the stars, everything was colored like that but shapes, our bodies still formed, we weren't the universe people know, but we were outside of it seeing it happen, he too was outside, and we all remember timeless experience, from there a pillar was cast upon this other apartment just in front of me and the other guy, it was a pillar made of that very same material of the dark night sky, but it seemed solid now instead of matterless, I told him exactly that "You can't outcast time if you use it, for you to end it and finish it you need to do it in a way you don't employ it at all", I wasn't his enemy and he acknowledged that just before the pillar opened up the soil and made an entrance or opening to the sidereal space.

I woke up. For real.

Then I went back to sleep just to have a quick dream about The gentle giant robot that wanted to be superman, but I forgot everything about it except that a ship was using a part of his body, his core, and it was sinking with him trying to get it, it was tremendous effort carrying all that weight since he was under the ship, and it was the weight of it and the entire ocean, but he could manage to get the core somehow and leave, he always however kept carrying on.