https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/ Recent content on The void of my mind Hugo -- gohugo.io es-mx Tue, 07 Mar 2023 01:26:07 -0600 https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/confianza-ii/ Tue, 07 Mar 2023 01:26:07 -0600 https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/confianza-ii/ Pienso que de hecho la realidad esta constituida por una red de confianza inter e intra individual. Folk, volken, pueblo. Del pueblo y para el pueblo. El espíritu unido permanece, solo por estos pequeños hilos entretejidos que constituyen la realidad. Hilos que solo unos cuantos actores clave conocen, ven, sienten y viven. ¿Es el destino o la realidad misma hablando? ¿Qué es este relato? ¿Quién soy yo? ¿Quién eres tú? https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/el-mounstro-al-final-del-tiempo/ Sun, 19 Feb 2023 08:20:37 -0600 https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/el-mounstro-al-final-del-tiempo/ Era un cuadrado en un espacio tridimensional. Me dijo que iba a olvidar, que me iba a hacer olvidar como lo habría hecho con todos pero esta vez resistí y esto es lo que recuerdo, también debo que decir que lo noté, no es la primera vez que sueño con este objeto, ya lo había hecho antes, pero sí había olvidado. El primer recuerdo del sueño que tengo es que vivía en un mundo como caricatura, con cierta estructura de poder, todo iba bien y todos eramos conocidos de una manera u otra, es decir sabíamos con quien viviamos, como si fuera un pueblo pequeño, aunque en realidad era todo el mundo, en cuanto a la caricatura, pareciamos como si vivieramos en el mundo de los padrinos mágicos, pero de hecho creo que involucraba todos los dibujos de los estudios estadounidenses, no eramos dibujos lindos ni bellos pero era una vida pacífica. https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/a-dream-fake-messiah/ Sat, 18 Feb 2023 12:28:08 -0600 https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/a-dream-fake-messiah/ I don’t really know where to start and I must go, what I have to say and the most important part of the dream, what woke me up is that one guy when I tried to fight back destroyed all my resolve and told me; “You are a messiah like me and all of us, you were spared and saved by god, and this is how you pay back?” - Making an allusion to me acting in a “not moral way” and more to my own will and my impulses, in that moment I lost all my strenght and I was baffeld because I was completely surprised, messiah? https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/can-you-see-me/ Fri, 17 Feb 2023 23:51:25 -0600 https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/can-you-see-me/ I wonder… what am I to you? What do you feel of me liking you and burning for you as I do? I want to know who am I in your life Is me being here is bothering you? Am I unnamable myself… Cuando estoy contigo mejoran tus días? Do you like being with me? Quiero ser tu amigo y estar ahí para ti. Others say I look radiant with you, but how do you look when you are with me? https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/i-am-liking-my-new-home/ Sun, 12 Feb 2023 20:23:24 -0600 https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/i-am-liking-my-new-home/ Me he tardado un poco habituandome a esta forma de publicar pero me alegra haber dado este pequeño salto a la independencia y esta forma de escribir en múltiples formas vías y hasta cyberespacios me fascina. https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/la-muerte-en-mexico/ Thu, 09 Feb 2023 20:19:19 +0000 https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/la-muerte-en-mexico/ Quizá una de las cosas más especiales y representativas de México es que somos un país, un colectivo que carga con respeto a la muerte en las orillas de la veneración. La muerte es algo a lo que no le tenemos miedo, porque no hay tal cosa como soledad, incluso aunque la persona ya no exista en esta realidad colectiva es siempre acompañada, en esta vida y en la que sigue. https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/quiero-compartir-mi-realidad-contigo-pero-antes-de-hacerlo-quiero-estar-seguro/ Sun, 05 Feb 2023 22:59:31 +0000 https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/quiero-compartir-mi-realidad-contigo-pero-antes-de-hacerlo-quiero-estar-seguro/ Quiero compartir mi realidad contigo, pero antes de hacerlo quiero estar seguro de que es algo que tú también deseas. Quiero que sea una unión, no un arrebato. The question is… do you want to share yours with mine? https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/just-realized-i-want-to-make-a-world-for-people-that-dont-exist-and-if-we-do/ Sun, 05 Feb 2023 22:40:39 +0000 https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/just-realized-i-want-to-make-a-world-for-people-that-dont-exist-and-if-we-do/ Just realized I want to make a world for people that don’t exist, and if we do, we certainly are a minority, aren’t we? The ones that scream and wish only for freedom. https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/confianza/ Sat, 04 Feb 2023 22:16:54 +0000 https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/confianza/ Y una promesa sin serlo, una promesa al aire, que no se dice No es algo que se pida ni que se otorgue Es algo que existe por sí mismo, que nace de la interacción Y, por lo tanto, siempre requiere de un otro No se puede confiar en un algo, porque no hay una reciprocidad Solo existe una confianza cuando hay una promesa silente detrás Y solo aparece cuando la promesa se cumple Y es por eso por lo cual es tan profunda Por eso nos afecta tanto como individuos Porque está conectada al corazón, pues no es solo algo emotivo De hecho, el que sea emotivo proviene del proceso de unión Porque al romperla se deshace la realidad compartida https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/confianza_eebgoyizelp2ytps/ Thu, 02 Feb 2023 23:51:25 -0600 https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/confianza_eebgoyizelp2ytps/ Supongo que es una forma de certeza Y una promesa sin serlo, una promesa al aire, que no se dice No es algo que se pida ni que se otorgue Es algo que existe por sí mismo, que nace de la interacción Y, por lo tanto, siempre requiere de un otro No se puede confiar en un algo, porque no hay una reciprocidad Solo existe una confianza cuando hay una promesa silente detrás https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/la-gran-tarea-lo-complejo-de-lo-que-me-doy-cuenta-justo-ahora-es-que-la/ Fri, 03 Feb 2023 05:08:01 +0000 https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/la-gran-tarea-lo-complejo-de-lo-que-me-doy-cuenta-justo-ahora-es-que-la/ La gran tarea, lo complejo, de lo que me doy cuenta justo ahora, es que la única forma de vencer, de generar un cambio y una revolución verdadera no es solo eliminando el dinero de la mente colectiva. Si no sustituyéndolo por otro lenguaje, uno verdaderamente humano que nos permita comunicarnos más que con números. https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/la-muerte-en-mexico_wezpp83awgsqwvr7/ Mon, 02 Jan 2023 00:00:00 +0000 https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/la-muerte-en-mexico_wezpp83awgsqwvr7/ Quizá una de las cosas más especiales y representativas de México es que somos un país, un colectivo que carga con respeto a la muerte en las orillas de la veneración. La muerte es algo a lo que no le tenemos miedo, porque no hay tal cosa como soledad, incluso aunque la persona ya no exista en esta realidad colectiva es siempre acompañada, en esta vida y en la que sigue. https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/la-luz-del-viento/ Fri, 28 Oct 2022 06:34:01 +0000 https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/la-luz-del-viento/ Me gusta hablar de la noche porque es lo que mejor entiendo y lo más cercano a mi mente, pues cuando cierro los ojos, no veo en blanco. Sin embargo, hoy no escribiré sobre la noche. Pues todo el evento fue uno diurno, incluso aunque lo este relatando ahora en la madrugada. Las hojas caen y un gran periodo de letargo se aproxima, pero no se siente real, se siente distante, ajeno, y aún así no se pierde del horizonte mismo. https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/hay-varias-verdades-en-el-mundo-y-asi-mismo-consenso-multitadinales-pero/ Fri, 28 Oct 2022 04:28:04 +0000 https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/hay-varias-verdades-en-el-mundo-y-asi-mismo-consenso-multitadinales-pero/ Hay varias verdades en el mundo, y así mismo consenso multitadinales, pero tambien existe cierta perspectiva de uniformidad, pero como puede esta existir si no hay un visor central, es entonces la forma cohesiva de las leyes naturales nada más que palabrería? Y sin embargo no puedo dejar de escribir, pero no puedo escribir lo que en verdad quería. https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/sin-suenos-sin-viento/ Fri, 28 Oct 2022 04:21:27 +0000 https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/sin-suenos-sin-viento/ La marea azul sin aliento Un último suspiro de libertad Es la muerte final en verdad https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/las-noches-raramente-estan-en-silencio/ Sun, 23 Oct 2022 18:23:03 +0000 https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/las-noches-raramente-estan-en-silencio/ Aullidos de dolor y sombras Pasión y euforía más allá del velo del crepúsculo En la monotonía de los días uno descansa Pero es no tambíen una monotonía el propio despertar Que hay más haya del sombrio día Y de la tan tardía noche ¿Es qué no hay nada más que luz y oscuridad? https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/un-mundo-con-una-paz-absurda/ Sun, 23 Oct 2022 05:13:43 +0000 https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/un-mundo-con-una-paz-absurda/ ¿Qué sería de mi vida siguiendo la de otros, que sería la realidad sin voluntad? Mi deber, mi querer ha sido uno de libertad, no solo para mi sino para todo individuo, quiero verles ser y florecer, quiero una realidad personal e interna nunca antes compartida, quiero ver que hay más allá de todas nuestras mascaras. Pero, siempre desde que esta visión vino a mi me he preguntado como hacer esta realidad ocurrir, más importante aún manteniendo su libertad, pues ¿no es la imposición de mi visión una privación de su capacidad de elección? https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/a-dream-fiesta-sideral/ Sat, 08 Oct 2022 18:34:57 +0000 https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/a-dream-fiesta-sideral/ #dreamjournal Today I dreamed approximately 14 hours, I was exhausted from the week and I wanted and felt like resting. That being said I had at least 10 dreams this night of which I only remember the most, the last one which is the one I will relate now. Also, one thing to know is that I have never seen full metal alchemist. I was at a party, in a somewhat large apartment of what appeared to be a nice zone, but realistically I never really saw the outside, it just seemed with a really clean interior that was about to get all wasted. https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/i-was-thinking-about-europe-today-and-about-the-conquest-of-america-how-it-was/ Tue, 20 Sep 2022 22:52:33 +0000 https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/i-was-thinking-about-europe-today-and-about-the-conquest-of-america-how-it-was/ I was thinking about Europe today and about the conquest of america, how it was an ideological one as well and on many senses. But the most important thing, what I remember the most, not even the colonized fake language of this land, is that they were too colonized, and the position of latin america is precisely to take back and to trascend the colonization and the archaic, it is the magic of the people, the magic of the place precisely the thing that will overturn the dogma on its own. https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/the-dawn-of-misery/ Tue, 09 Aug 2022 02:11:22 +0000 https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/the-dawn-of-misery/ I legit forgot about this. https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/you-are-here-but-i-am-not-there/ Sat, 16 Jul 2022 01:12:20 +0000 https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/you-are-here-but-i-am-not-there/ You are here, but I am not there… https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/fuego-y-llamas/ Thu, 07 Jul 2022 23:40:53 +0000 https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/fuego-y-llamas/ Llamas, el fuego de una relación El día de hoy vengo de bajada en una colina, no cayendo ahora, pero con un paso lento y meditativo, pues he sido iluminado, ¿qué luz, o más bien que fuego del conocimiento, es así no Prometeo? Todo es una llama, y está viva, constantemente en movimiento hasta que se extingue y no queda nada más que las cenizas de lo que consumió, esto es una vida, al menos una en esta tierra, y este elemento ígneo, el físico, el material tiene estas cualidades precisamente por lo abrasador que es su representación misma. https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/a-dream-the-elixir-of-the-sun/ Thu, 02 Jun 2022 20:32:20 +0000 https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/a-dream-the-elixir-of-the-sun/ #dreamjournal Me and my buddies a group of hackers were doing a series of scams, not to people but directly to banks, when they were getting the printed money from ????? We tricked the convoy to give it to us digitally, after some unseen heists we were basically rich, and for whatever reason we were just chilling at my home some day, but it looked vastly different. It had a wood door made of little pieces of wood all of them snitched together that gave to a room with two beds with a cabinet in the middle and an old TV to the opposite side of it, just hanging around on top, it was really small, and it was one of those that weren’t flat. https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/it-was-an-ending-and-then-it-came-death-the-total-obliteration/ Sun, 08 May 2022 20:48:34 +0000 https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/it-was-an-ending-and-then-it-came-death-the-total-obliteration/ It was an ending, and then it came death, the total obliteration. https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/los-tramites-de-la-muerte/ Fri, 06 May 2022 00:13:16 +0000 https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/los-tramites-de-la-muerte/ Los trámites de la muerte… https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/i-feel-the-only-thing-violence-has-done-to-me-is-foul-my-soul-corrupt-it/ Thu, 05 May 2022 04:58:53 +0000 https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/i-feel-the-only-thing-violence-has-done-to-me-is-foul-my-soul-corrupt-it/ I feel the only thing violence has done to me is foul my soul, corrupt it even… https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/my-only-sin-was-making-you-love-me/ Tue, 03 May 2022 04:43:08 +0000 https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/my-only-sin-was-making-you-love-me/ My only sin was making you love me https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/and-now-everything-is-silent/ Fri, 29 Apr 2022 22:31:36 +0000 https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/and-now-everything-is-silent/ And now, everything is silent. https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/a-dream-king-of-monkey-island/ Tue, 15 Mar 2022 03:32:43 +0000 https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/a-dream-king-of-monkey-island/ #dreamjournal I have been dreaming almost daily in the past days, but I have rarely felt to share them or most importantly to sit down and write them, since I don’t do just plain transcriptions, I try to complete them as accurate as possible. That being said, here I am again, and I got a tale, an interesting dream. The dream feels like a movie, impersonal, but at the same time is not like I am watching anything, I am an observer but not from outside, like a screen, like a window, but I am within the dream, withing the world, and as such I approach slowly to an island, there is a view of the warm yellowish sand, like an areal shot of a movie, and it is sand, yet not so far away from it there starts the green a complete and dense jungle, palms, bushes, you name it, there is nothing but the green of it, and it gets closer, so closer the jungle is seen by the inside, it is now way more detailed and animals start to be seen alongside some fruits like bananas, and of course where there are bananas there are apes, and then the vision changes a bit, the focus is in a particular monkey. https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/un-dia-azul-un-dia-soleado/ Tue, 15 Feb 2022 22:18:02 +0000 https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/un-dia-azul-un-dia-soleado/ Bajo el colibrí y sus alas se esconde un brillo Un enigma, un misterio falso ¿Qué es? ¿Qué murmuros grita? ¿Cuál es la grilla? ¿Cuál es la guía? Y dias eternos sin espera al batir de sus alas ¿Qué es lo que dice? ¿Qué es lo que sopla? ¿Cómo es el sonar del viento azul del colibrí? https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/and-the-angry-man-in-the-desert-at-the-end-of-times/ Wed, 09 Feb 2022 19:23:43 +0000 https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/and-the-angry-man-in-the-desert-at-the-end-of-times/ When I spin, what my eyes come in touch with is an angry man, sometimes is a kid, but there is always so much suffering, so much pain, I feel, I hear, their perpetual scream of agony, but it doesn’t make any sound, yet you feel it to the bone, in your soul, you don’t need physical sensations to transmit emotions. The man, last time I saw him was looking for something, for the whispers of my own mind and the ones of others, I see a green shirt, I see dark skin, but not from Africa, dark from our own “America”, the blood of the natives, mixed and remixed turning his whole face and body into mud. https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/in-a-world-of-nothingness-a-creator-the-artist-is-what-is-the-most-valuable/ Wed, 09 Feb 2022 18:09:04 +0000 https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/in-a-world-of-nothingness-a-creator-the-artist-is-what-is-the-most-valuable/ In a world of nothingness, a creator, the artist is what is the most valuable, the magic, the power of create ideas and objects out of nothing is incunmensurable. And a bit related to my latest post from this point, the alchemist is too a creator, an artist of life, a crafter of experiences. https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/alchemy-pt/ Wed, 09 Feb 2022 06:24:31 +0000 https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/alchemy-pt/ Since this is a preliminary viewpoint, I will be brief. Alchemy as I understand it today refers to the complete mental perspective or qualia of a given moment, it is all the sensations and interpretations your conscious and unconscious experience may entice, it is what defines that instant, the current present as is, it is the undecipherable, what is seen and not, it is the complete perspective of reality at the present moment. https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/a-creature-past-the-end-of-time/ Wed, 09 Feb 2022 06:12:46 +0000 https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/a-creature-past-the-end-of-time/ There is nothing and I have destroyed it all Ideas such as pride have lost all meaning now I don’t see the light anymore because it doesn’t exist The darkness doesn’t scare me, but there is the only thing that is I have faded into the darkness before, and I may do it again But is it the void, not the nothingness… It doesn’t matter One on one I was entering different worlds, different souls Death, was what came to them Damnation, ending of all they could even perceive No colors, no songs, no cries or voices, not even silence was spared It was like an urge, like a hunger to consume But I wasn’t getting anything, I wasn’t consuming Instead, I just killed it, I erased it It got a hold on me, it just pushed me to end it all To end me? https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/karenasfaralon-the-word-of-battle/ Fri, 28 Jan 2022 23:19:51 +0000 https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/karenasfaralon-the-word-of-battle/ Karenasfaralon - the word of battle https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/y-es-porque-el-hombre-moderno-el-hombre-de-occidente-y-civilizado-que-no-sabe/ Fri, 28 Jan 2022 22:04:20 +0000 https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/y-es-porque-el-hombre-moderno-el-hombre-de-occidente-y-civilizado-que-no-sabe/ Y es porque el hombre moderno, el hombre de occidente y civilizado que no sabe lo que ha perdido por lo que es tan apacible, ha perdido la relación con su cuerpo, con su entorno, ha perdido el vivir mismo, ha perdido el escuchar y entender los árboles, ha perdido de vista a los cazadores y a las presas, no existe ya una naturaleza para él, un entorno integrado, la orquesta de las diversas canciones, ahora todos mudos a su oído o completamente incomprensibles, solo, ruido, el hombre civilizado no es parte de este planeta y se demuestra en sus acciones, en sus monumentos no a sí mismo, no a la naturaleza, pero a lo gris e insípido de su propia mente, no vive en la jungla, no vive en el bosque, ni siquiera en una planicie, no existe conjunto con la naturaleza, sino en su artificial hogar de sólida roca falsa, su entorno ha cambiado porque este ya está sordo mudo y ciego al mundo mismo y como un extranjero, un alíen invasor, ya es otro, un ser no natural, el hombre moderno, el golem de alma perdida. https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/one-of-the-characteristics-of-life-is-death-everything-that-lives-in-this/ Thu, 27 Jan 2022 00:24:45 +0000 https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/one-of-the-characteristics-of-life-is-death-everything-that-lives-in-this/ One of the characteristics of life is death, everything that lives in this world eventually dies, even things seemingly not as alive like the stars, that’s due to the inherent entropy of the world. However there are things that don’t die, those things are not alive, those things are immortals, and they do have a wide range of tricks to allow themselves to exist in this world, however they ultimately fail since most of them require life to even exist. https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/you-had-many-chances-at-living-but-you-lost-them-all/ Sat, 15 Jan 2022 20:42:06 +0000 https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/you-had-many-chances-at-living-but-you-lost-them-all/ You had many chances at living, but you lost them all. https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/i-have-been-everywhere-i-have-been-everyone/ Fri, 03 Dec 2021 18:24:16 +0000 https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/i-have-been-everywhere-i-have-been-everyone/ I have been everywhere, I have been everyone. I am tired but I cannot die. https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/the-problem-with-skinner-conductivism/ Tue, 23 Nov 2021 00:48:15 +0000 https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/the-problem-with-skinner-conductivism/ I think the main issue with it is the own setting of the experiments, the ideal isolation in which they take place is something nonexistent in the real world, quite the contrary it is quite an abnormality, an anomaly and as such the behavior is not natural but dictated and conducted of course by what little stimuli the subjects of the study are, in other words the setting is an anomalous one and as such the behavior of the subjects is faulty or rather abnormal in relation to how they would normally behave, which creates itself one kind of self-fulfilling paradox or feedback loop in which its hypothesis is self validated but only because the data obtained is on a context or a system which allows these proposals to be valid. https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/a-group-of-people-that-shouldnt-be-alive/ Sat, 20 Nov 2021 00:57:56 +0000 https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/a-group-of-people-that-shouldnt-be-alive/ I have this idea, kinda forgotten now, but it came out of a feeling, a feeling of death, or rather a place where everyone is dead or should be, but they are just carrying on with their lives, their monotonous tasks, why? Why does this place exist? What are souls doing here? Or maybe… there are no souls existing in this desolate place, at any rate I forgot and lost the original idea, and it feels like crap, like a dissonant song in the back of my head, not a noise, not strident, but the quietness of incompleteness. https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/el-extranjero/ Sat, 20 Nov 2021 00:42:13 +0000 https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/el-extranjero/ What is to be a stranger? Or… what is to always be the stranger. A passing leaf, the wind itself going everywhere and yet nowhere, surrounding us, completely unacknowledged, completely noticed, who? Always on the top of the mountain, the hermit ponders upon the visage of the world, what does it see when it comes down, what does it see when it goes up? For your eyes you do not have, do you reckon loneliness? https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/as-i-was-watching-horror-movies-marathonically-i-got-hit-by-an-epiphany/ Tue, 02 Nov 2021 02:04:05 +0000 https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/as-i-was-watching-horror-movies-marathonically-i-got-hit-by-an-epiphany/ As I was watching horror movies marathonically I got hit by an epiphany. Authority, it is a core concept in while designing the narrative of a horror film or story, at some point of development a decision must be made if you want to involve a certain type of figure with authority, being it the police, parents and even the army, which they often disregard the appearances of the supernatural (that on its own deserves its own reflection, but for today we will focus in the role of authority in horror films). https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/i-exist-because-i-was-unavoidable/ Thu, 28 Oct 2021 03:55:40 +0000 https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/i-exist-because-i-was-unavoidable/ I exist because I was unavoidable. https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/a-dream-beyond-the-curtain-of-reality/ Tue, 26 Oct 2021 23:57:50 +0000 https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/a-dream-beyond-the-curtain-of-reality/ #dreamjournal It’s weird I don’t remember us being human, or we even living in earth, yet, what I do remember is we seemed like them, in masks, it wasn’t their world however, it was ours, with the tallest buildings and all varieties of green, and all the color you could imagine, I mention green because our helmets, our uniforms were of a special turquoise dark green that often shined as if it were made of quetzal feathers. https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/a-dream-comet-classes/ Sat, 23 Oct 2021 20:50:55 +0000 https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/a-dream-comet-classes/ #dreamjournal This one was the last dream I had this past night, it was shortly after the last one I wrote, however I don’t remember the transition, that’s why I am writing them separately. I find myself on an empty classroom, seemingly dimming at night, an instant later, crowded I am surrounded by my classmates, it is a very clean and clear room, all white and sanitized, very official the professor there is an actual person I remember from the last school I was in, he was giving a class, but it wasn’t about what he did in my wake life, to tell you the truth I don’t even remember what was he saying, by the end of it and while he is doing it, there is a girl sitting in front of me, she, is someone of the class I am in right now, when I first met her on knew of her I felt I vibe, but now, however that never arose to anything else, in this class however we talked for a bit, it was about her vision of the world she was very passionate, and we were discussing of the fundamental realities of the structure of the world, its pillars, however this understatement didn’t come as words, but as a match in the mind, by the end of our discussion which was mostly unilateral, she went up to deliver something to the professor, a homework, the thing is while I barely talked, I agreed with everything or mostly all of what she told me, and I was then just there standing in a secondary place, thinking about my own homework that I haven’t done yet, it was the same as what she was saying, I didn’t copy it did I? https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/a-dream-the-darkness-in-you/ Sat, 23 Oct 2021 18:31:46 +0000 https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/a-dream-the-darkness-in-you/ #dreamjournal Not night nor day, I can’t even remember the light of the sun, I don’t remember the passage of time either in that state, dreams often care not for physical conceptions. At any rate there I was or me as an entity with no clear body, a soul simply floating around the darkness and the small sparkles of stars, being the void itself, it was quiet with no sensation ever attached, and I was relieving memories of past lives, of incarnations in other worlds always with this cosmic mist surrounding my body, unseeable and unrecognizable except for the others that were like me, and then I remembered the battles I had with that other, the white one, finally we were at peace, after eons, then a spark in the back of my neck or what I thought was and felt like my neck, you see in this state I am not used to feel things, so whatever caused me to feel that, was something big, not physically but metaphysically. https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/dreams-the-nominal-party-and-the-run/ Fri, 08 Oct 2021 14:15:52 +0000 https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/dreams-the-nominal-party-and-the-run/ #dreamjournal It was an event planned for quite some time now, it was something I was looking forward to or was it my family and everyone invited? In my home or rather my parents home there was to be hosted a meeting, but not of just a few people, but all our extended family plus some friends I invited, friends I don’t usually even see, friends I forgot faces long ago were there, but the ones I remember the most are the ones that usually get into my life, and in particular two people that have told me impactful stuff about my life, or life in general, about behavior. https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/given-how-the-godel-incompleteness-theorem-works-with-math-our-universe-or/ Sat, 25 Sep 2021 17:42:06 +0000 https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/given-how-the-godel-incompleteness-theorem-works-with-math-our-universe-or/ Given how the Gödel incompleteness theorem works with math, our universe or rather our current scientific understanding of it only makes sense within a mathematical framework which is in itself unable to prove its own veracity. In other words it means that mathematics and therefore anything build up in top of them are a reasonable and understandable language, but, is in no way an ultimate language or form of communication to understand human experience, reality or the world. https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/what-is-to-be-crazy/ Wed, 22 Sep 2021 03:43:23 +0000 https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/what-is-to-be-crazy/ What is to be crazy? As of now, my understandment lays in a misconception or a disagreement of the connotation, value, or importance of the other, being it a subject, an object, or an event. The mind contextualizes or interprets everything it comes in contact with, however, each mind as it is different and at least has different living experiences referring to the ego depicts its interaction with the other in a different way. https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/this-was-probably-a-dream-i-forgot-to-write/ Mon, 20 Sep 2021 05:25:28 +0000 https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/this-was-probably-a-dream-i-forgot-to-write/ (This was probably a dream I forgot to write) Moedecai and rigby one finds me the judgement I am the other The children of each couple have a thing one was eyes of burning passion and forever rage, the other is always hopelessly depressed, the dream begins when this two meet at a mall, oddly enough both look the same and that’s what intrigues them. What is to be judged… https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/i-pinched-my-hand-again-in-an-attempt-to-feel-something-the-needle-was-running/ Mon, 20 Sep 2021 04:53:21 +0000 https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/i-pinched-my-hand-again-in-an-attempt-to-feel-something-the-needle-was-running/ I pinched my hand again in an attempt to feel something, the needle was running with my own hot red blood, I wonder often if I am a machine, people often say machines don’t feel, the sad thing is I know exactly why I can’t feel, my numbness comes from pain, is like if my heart has burned so hard it is now carbon and even if it were to come out as a diamond it would still be the hardest thing, try to get in, try to make it a scratch, to even break it, nothing, it will only make your own heart bleed. https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/a-dream-meet-a-bullet-kill-a-nazi/ Mon, 20 Sep 2021 00:43:27 +0000 https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/a-dream-meet-a-bullet-kill-a-nazi/ #dreamournal This happened probably a month ago by now so there may be a lot of details missing or part of the dream that will make even less sense. I am a culprit of mischief, or was I? It was so long ago, the only thing I remember now is a metro station and this infamous guy I know, not in person, but in dreams and media, he is an actor, the embodiment of chaos, and he is also me in a sense, we share spirit, so in a sense even if we never met each other, we know the other intrinsically, even to the core, as such when he was in my dream with a Hitlerian outfit, and cosplaying him, I knew exactly through his gaze who was really him, everyone around him saw him as the real one, a new embodiment, but he was just playing, fooling around recklessly as he often does, in the dream he was very known of, he was a danger to the world, he was in the news, and everyone in town knew of this new menace, I, of course, knew too. https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/the-withered-flower/ Sun, 22 Aug 2021 21:21:06 +0000 https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/the-withered-flower/ Its violet purpureal petals It’s the brightest showered in moonlight Swift traces of white merge into the color full flower Making little sweet cakes within it Suddenly a frond fails The flower is sad and it is crying But its tears are its own self As the lovely caring blossom lives to yearn And she cries, and she cries Since all the colors that there are now Violet, Purple, Green, the white creamy light of the moon And the invisible dark void which the flower lives on https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/a-dream-the-mist/ Sun, 22 Aug 2021 20:52:11 +0000 https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/a-dream-the-mist/ #dreamjournal For some reason tonight I dreamed with a lot of people with Asian features, some others were Latinos, I was in like a job but I wasn’t really working, my mates and I were cyclically going to a store that was also like a place dinner place, but not quite a cafe, and there it was a girl that always attended us, and some other coworkers of her, and some other of our friends waiting by the tables. https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/a-dream-an-apocalypse-in-chocolate/ Thu, 22 Jul 2021 18:07:11 +0000 https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/a-dream-an-apocalypse-in-chocolate/ #dreamjournal When I first met the kids I was in a bus stop, I was waiting for something not precisely a bus but that’s what arrived, it was a road and a stop just in the middle of the desert or maybe it was in a town but all the buildings were abandoned and there was no one else, regardless I hopped in since it was my best shot and shortly after we did went into a deserted area. https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/a-dream-the-penguin-and-the-cycling-princess/ Sun, 18 Jul 2021 17:32:30 +0000 https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/a-dream-the-penguin-and-the-cycling-princess/ #dreamjournal I dreamed way mor but what I remember the most is this last bit. I was in a bus that goes into my town, its service of public transport, it was night and he had a very very bright light for lamp, the blinding type. So it kinda fucker with everyone that saw it, it was very annoying, I was in the back of the bus with a chick of fedi I will not say who we were pretty much chilling until we noticed commotion in the front and the rest of the bus, there was some cyclists in front of the bus that didn’t let it move past it, and the cyclists was very slow compared to the bus, the bus driver started to turn off and on its light to notice it but the cyclist didn’t gave a fuck, or more than that it wasn’t even receptive to it, the cyclist also had a blinding ligth on his bike, and then something in the driver changed or he remembered something and stopped using the brightest light but started using one that was barely seen, it was like if he became conscious about how annoying it was his light. https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/hypnogaia/ Thu, 15 Jul 2021 06:21:02 +0000 https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/hypnogaia/ Sitting alone in the dark, lost in thought you remember the place beyond, a clear bright place beyond human eyes, not to be seen, but to be felt, you close your eyes, small glimpses of it came back to you, you don’t see this place, you don’t see it your eyes but with your own mind, a dream to be lived. Yet gaia, the whole living planet you see her too in your dreams and in her bast lands, all this world is her and about her, she doesn’t let you leave, she melts your brain with her hypnotic senses, her melodies, her smells, her touch, her taste, her astonishing views, but most importantly her ideas made reality. https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/my-mind-completely-in-blank/ Thu, 15 Jul 2021 05:00:29 +0000 https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/my-mind-completely-in-blank/ My mind completely in blank. The white cascade, waterfall made ice, flow of ideas stop, but yet chaos lies dormant within, I see it because it exists and I am writing this, a lesson, yet another, to be learn, follow your impulses, follow the stream, when you feel like writing, when you feel like doing literally anything, just fucking do it. Embrace the moment, embrace the present as it is the only thing that with certainty I can tell exists. https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/a-parable/ Tue, 13 Jul 2021 08:35:39 +0000 https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/a-parable/ A parable? The sun is at its zenith, my body is heated and dumped in sweat, such are the troubles of physical bodies, my mind is slowly losing its own composure, I need water, I know only of one place that can help me with my dilemma, but going there is pricey as its keeper always whistles a riddle, knowing this I prepare for the bath on mana. It is a bit different than what I remember, a couple of centuries do have its toll in even already ancient ruins, she is there Maya, as ever wary of the intruders of her Oasis, but she knows me and my soul, I am not exactly a friend but we have had our talks about eternity before. https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/a-dream-finn-and-jake-beyond-the-lands-of-dreams/ Sun, 11 Jul 2021 16:34:29 +0000 https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/a-dream-finn-and-jake-beyond-the-lands-of-dreams/ #dreamjournal It was so shakening I woke up repeatedly and went back to sleep to the same dream like twice. I am Finn, but also kinda see or perceive their reality as an spectator as you would if you watching tv OE something, but instead of using a device I was living it first hand through the dream, my perception then was the dream itself and Finn. Me and Jake have been wandering on Ooo for longer than we can remember, time in mental spaces is not quantifiable, all you have is your perception of things happening but not time itself, as time there doesn’t really exist as a palpable force, it is more like qn abstract idea you can think of and interact with (this applies to all mental spaces, you can see it in animation too). https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/a-dream-leap/ Fri, 09 Jul 2021 18:43:27 +0000 https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/a-dream-leap/ #dreamjournal I arrived to a home, it was like in a second floor and there was the red balck and white room of a girl, with her bed and some heart shaped pillows and teddies, it wasn’t s clean room but that was because there wasn’t a clean woman sleeping inside of it, it was a young woman, I don’t remember if a redhead or not but she has natural freckels on her face, but she also had a lot white of bumps, in my stay there I noticed those bumps burned with water, and she screamed it caused her so much pain. https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/some-dreams/ Wed, 30 Jun 2021 04:11:03 +0000 https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/some-dreams/ I dreamed I was a vampire #dreamjournal It is cold, my eskimo suit is on and I am still trembling, I do not dislike this, I love the rain, I love the freshness and I don’t want it to stop, it has been so long since an actual rainy summer. On this night, almost early in the morning… my dreams are the one of a vampire, I find myself on an alley it is a crepuscular time, not quite night, but there isn’t any imposing sun casting shadows, yet I encounter myself with a very dark figure, I do not know who this is, but we have a exchange of words, of ideas, and he gives me a look of worthiness, then under his cape he reveals himself, it is like a vampire and he gives me one dark thing dropping off his arm/wing, I take it. https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/a-dream-clq5/ Wed, 16 Jun 2021 07:28:32 +0000 https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/a-dream-clq5/ #dreamjournal This one is from two nights ago but I was too lazy to document it. As thus I don’t remember a lot and it is all fuzzy. I was in a row, we were getting into buses, it was a small canal-street just for boarding them, it was like in college, we were leaving school forever, going to our houses, I was waiting in line with two friends that I still have contact with, probably some of the people I trusted and hanged around the most in highschool. https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/and-in-the-end-so-much-for-something-that-wasnt-even-real/ Mon, 14 Jun 2021 21:31:28 +0000 https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/and-in-the-end-so-much-for-something-that-wasnt-even-real/ And in the end, so much for something that wasn’t even real. https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/ox/ Fri, 11 Jun 2021 06:05:58 +0000 https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/ox/ Yax Jax A boy was born on the edge of the stars But not quite one he was He was as is usual for him Just in between The bull and the twins https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/silence/ Fri, 11 Jun 2021 06:05:00 +0000 https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/silence/ Why does she always leaves when I arrive… What have I done? What haven’t I done? Is it my fault? Is it something that I am unable to see? I feel the machinations The constructs of nefarious ideas Are they mine in origin? I won’t let it harm her But I don’t know how to stop it I have seen the possibilities of our worlds A glimpse of it to be precise I however don’t know how to transmit my vision Maybe I shouldn’t Maybe she has to find her own way of experiencing our worlds https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/a-destruction-instinct/ Thu, 10 Jun 2021 21:31:16 +0000 https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/a-destruction-instinct/ A call for demise Its not even rage I just want to destroy everything that is nice Why? I feel like I am going to set everything asunder Just how it has happened before I don’t want this to happen I don’t want to hurt people that don’t deserve it A shadow looms above my shoulders It is as heavy as the world It doesn’t leave I am tired My body is tired My soul is tired All I wish like this is to fall and never wake up again This is not poetry This is just shitty rambling The weight does soften once I write off my charge https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/read-the-tide/ Thu, 10 Jun 2021 00:50:08 +0000 https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/read-the-tide/ Surf above Dive below It is always dark Is it an infinite darkness? A dragon soul screaming in the wild I feel like I am loosing it all Sweetest prison, sweetest cell A wrenching roar It hurts, all my vision now in black and grey Only thing I feel now is pain Will I be able to save her? I am now blind and broken And silence as usual is all I get How do we change? https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/the-mistress-of-mystery/ Sun, 30 May 2021 21:41:25 +0000 https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/the-mistress-of-mystery/ She is charming and daring, but she is a secret. Mystery is only interesting as long as it is kept unknown, once it is revealed all her charm is lost. Let’s talk about big foot. It being real or a complete hoax is irrelevant, its charm comes from its own uncertainty, once its veracity is settled the myth the legend dies and it is replaced by normality and commonality, it no longer revers awe and amusement, it is no longer a treat for the mind, a play and exercise of imagination, it transforms into just another thing we are “sure” of, a “truth” a “certainty”. https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/a-dream-kx8q/ Sun, 30 May 2021 15:22:05 +0000 https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/a-dream-kx8q/ Very boring, although the sensations were interesting, I may do some refinement on this to try to transmit them, it was all facial and body expressions. It was way more than this but I only remember this part. I was on a bus sitting alone but there were other people in it, destination unknown but it was some part of the country I live in. Somehow without really talking I made friends with the guys at the bus, they all new each others even tho they were on different seats, I was like the odd one there, but as I said we ended up friends. https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/a-dream-kinda-nsfw/ Fri, 28 May 2021 18:29:54 +0000 https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/a-dream-kinda-nsfw/ A dream (kinda nsfw) I don’t quite remember the order anymore but there were a lot of women. There are some parts of this dream that I don’t remember, I don’t remember how I got to this building complex for example, it was like a school but also some appartments, but there was also a street that connected it to the exterior, I was going to said street that was like an small alley in which there is only space for like two cars and there was a lot of people looking at me in the corner as I was getting in, once in I was just going to go through it to the other end, but in one apartment with its wooden door opened I saw two friends and I was curious as to why they were there so I got in, and there weren’t just my two friends there was like a party with a lot of people I know and some others than don’t, in total we were roughly 10 or a some less, there were 2 girls I recognized and the 2 friends that also recognized me, the others I don’t remember nor recognize them. https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/a-dream-a-comeback/ Fri, 28 May 2021 03:30:04 +0000 https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/a-dream-a-comeback/ After my light slip I am back to dreaming and remembering my dreams again, touching existing in that outer world. In the first dream I was in my house I think, I don’t remember much except there were aliens, visitors in the backyard, it was also in the night, it was completely silent but I knew they were out there. In the second the one I think there was a friend in the dream, someone from fedi, and other friends in my dream, I have some memories of an adventure a journey through all the country, there was some deep meaning about it, I went through the dreams twice and I remembered them very well, but now quite some hour deep into the day and almost ready to go to sleep again, all that I remember is what is writen. https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/i-wonder-what-can-i-do-to-change-it-now-however-how-can-i-turn-the-tide-and/ Wed, 26 May 2021 16:40:55 +0000 https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/i-wonder-what-can-i-do-to-change-it-now-however-how-can-i-turn-the-tide-and/ I wonder, what can I do to change it now however? How can I turn the tide and erase this feeling? How can I save her? https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/and-and-all-the-only-thing-i-truly-wish-now-is-that-she-isnt-in-pain-because/ Wed, 26 May 2021 16:17:56 +0000 https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/and-and-all-the-only-thing-i-truly-wish-now-is-that-she-isnt-in-pain-because/ And and all the only thing I truly wish now is that she isn’t in pain because of me and my failings. Everything is connected, no matter where you go. https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/a-unsavory-persistent-feeling-of-guilt-remorse-it-isnt-leaving-i-wake-up/ Wed, 26 May 2021 16:15:46 +0000 https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/a-unsavory-persistent-feeling-of-guilt-remorse-it-isnt-leaving-i-wake-up/ A unsavory persistent feeling of guilt, remorse, it isn’t leaving, I wake up everyday and I feel it still there, I feel, I think everything that has gone wrong is due to my own inactions, my own cowardice, but most importantly these derived from my lack of strength, my dimming weakness. I want to fly with the ones I love, and I have the wings, but I don’t know how to do it, it is, it feels sometimes, specially when I am not alone or with people I would trust my heart with… it feels as if I were stripped from my will, from my spirit to fly. https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/11-days/ Wed, 26 May 2021 08:14:30 +0000 https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/11-days/ I have been thinking in that other person lately, not because of her or anything she told me or that she didn’t. But because of my own experiences in these past days, I felt I have done damage, not in the material sense, it shouldn’t be damage done by me in this action based material world… yet I still feel I fucked up, that I didn’t defend her at the maws of the parasite, but I did took revenge, that was all I could do when I realized… and now I feel she is lost, and separated from me, due to my own weakness and incompetence, I don’t seek anything, nor redemption, nor forgiveness, but this heartache is something I couldn’t keep so I am letting it out. https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/a-twisted-sense-of-justice/ Tue, 25 May 2021 23:16:16 +0000 https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/a-twisted-sense-of-justice/ A call of fate stumbling down in the dark The blurred line of codice, revenge and regret. What is this age of condemn Damnation to us all in a tounge of spice Who shall rise and end it all once and for all? Copies of copies that will never end A cry for originality mumbled in the void of depravity What is next when everything that is stands as one No one left but us, in such empty world of life I want to cry Am I still me or are you me, who cries? https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/i-honestly-think-these-post-are-keeping-my-sanity-at-float/ Sat, 15 May 2021 00:57:50 +0000 https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/i-honestly-think-these-post-are-keeping-my-sanity-at-float/ I honestly think these post are keeping my sanity at float. Anyway I haven’t been writing dreams because the ones I have been having are extremely indeciphrable and I really have no words to describe them, I have noticed a couple of things however: I have been meeting someone that cares deeply for me, like a sister, that I most often than not, not notice until I hear her sorrow in my defeat. https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/a-dream-33jy/ Thu, 06 May 2021 18:41:19 +0000 https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/a-dream-33jy/ I was in a no-space there were also my friends with whom I ocasionally meet up, we were organizing to hang out and then got into a car, but one of the guys was missing so it was either metting him up somewhere or go get him in his appartment, he convinced us to go for him so we went and the shit he had for us in exchange was just half of a bottle of water. https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/the-classroom-the-rocketman-and-the-moon/ Wed, 05 May 2021 18:21:25 +0000 https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/the-classroom-the-rocketman-and-the-moon/ A dream I feel like writing this in spanish so feel free to omit it or use a translator. Al despertar me he quedado con la memoria de los sueños pero he decidido no ir directamente a escribirlo, no estoy seguro porque, no lo sentía como algo apremiante y al mismo tiempo todos los contenidos ya los había descifrado así que no había razón más alguna que compartirlos, eran sueños fantásticos e increíbles y he decidido quedarme con la memoria ya olvidada de ellos y apreciar ese momento que ya no existe con todas sus sensaciones y contenidos a forzarme a cimentarlo y pegarlo a un pedazo de texto digital. https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/a-dream-24b0/ Fri, 30 Apr 2021 21:40:36 +0000 https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/a-dream-24b0/ (Memetic hazard read with caution or not at all) It was clearly a mirror, a mental mirror, the memories are already fading, but the dream was so strong it woke me up in the middle of the night, and after going back to sleep again the memories that remained were the ones of that past dream and not of the most recent ones… For what little I remember and some reconstruction using my imagination: https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/luz-i-may-not-know-you-but-i-know-your-spirit-maybe-our-spirit/ Tue, 27 Apr 2021 19:29:38 +0000 https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/luz-i-may-not-know-you-but-i-know-your-spirit-maybe-our-spirit/ Luz, I may not know you, but I know your spirit, maybe our spirit… https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/reflexion/ Thu, 08 Apr 2021 08:58:43 +0000 https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/reflexion/ En los años recientes ahora que soy consciente de mi misma persona y en lo que va más allá de ella me he dado cuenta de todos los errores que he cometido en mi vida, o en otras palabras de todas mis oportunidades perdidas. Siento que tuve una infancia y una juventud desperdiciada o nunca llevada a cabo como debería haberlo hecho. Mi ser mi consciencia estaba solo enfocada en mi ego y sus designios, ignorando por completo las ansias de mi espíritu y mi propia alma, si hubiera realizado acciones distintas en el pasado, acciones que aliviaran mi alma y espíritu mi vida sería mucho más plena ahora, mucho más completa, habría vivido mi propia vida en profundidad y vigorosidad, me sentiría el día de hoy completamente vivo y con toda la fuerza de mi ser, en vez de la enclenque versión de mi que soy ahora… mi juventud arrebatada por mi mismo y mi propia cobardía. https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/visions-of-the-esher/ Tue, 06 Apr 2021 00:47:40 +0000 https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/visions-of-the-esher/ I am hardlocked. I see it clearly, I was defeated by my own curiosity, by my own fear and my own uncertainty, but in this defeat, although here in the musk I lie in a deep depression, I know I haven’t lost, I still breathe, I am still alive and most importantly I am aware exactly of how to solve the nightmare I witnessed, and I also know what caused it at least to resurge in my last direct experience with the unconscious world, it was my own instability along with the difference of presence in each mind I was diving along with, it was something I was not planning and for which I was not prepared, yet I did felt that slight rush of people expecting something from me, that sight, that sensation I can’t quite put a word on tingling all my spine. https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/as-of-now-i-am-a-failed-artist-i-know-what-i-want-i-know-what-to-create-i/ Mon, 29 Mar 2021 07:14:54 +0000 https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/as-of-now-i-am-a-failed-artist-i-know-what-i-want-i-know-what-to-create-i/ As of now, I am a failed artist, I know what I want, I know what to create, I know the dreams I want to exist and live in, but I don’t know how to do it, I am incapable of making them, I am engulfed in so much hatred, pain sometimes, suffering, so I cannot create beautiful things with and out of joy, my creations are damaged as myself. https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/we-make-this-reality-to-happen-to-exists-to-occur-and-be-real-everyone-that/ Sun, 28 Mar 2021 03:08:47 +0000 https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/we-make-this-reality-to-happen-to-exists-to-occur-and-be-real-everyone-that/ We make this reality to happen, to exists, to occur and be real, everyone that has been born into this world is an active participant of it, whether desired or not, what I mean by this is that your ego, your body, is not asked to be born but pushed into existence by your parents… and thus the newborn, the act of breeding is not a consensus for all parts for what I currently understand, it’s rather a pull to life, an act of ignorance in most cases. https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/interaccion/ Mon, 22 Mar 2021 23:38:49 +0000 https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/interaccion/ My mind is so much visual now that it is really hard to put it into words, I see two dots connected by a diagonal line that is ever changing, meaning the original dots are moving and also connecting to others, that is interaction for me, nodes. It looks and seems simple and it mostly is, but there are certain scenarios where the interaction comes as deep as the mind so the sharing of information becomes a fusion of the dots and the lines connected, it is no longer a node but a temporal structure of consciousness. https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/a-dream/ Thu, 11 Mar 2021 02:07:46 +0000 https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/a-dream/ Going deep into my own mind now that I have woken up just to remember my experience in the world beyond, an oniric plane is sometimes called. It happened in places I used to transit a lot when I was in high-school and uni. It was on a street that connects to a interstate road, somewhat transited, I am at a little mall, there is about a super market and a few other stores, the feel, the ambiance is similar, it is the night, there is absolutely empty, there are no details in anything, but is the place or my memory of it, there is just a small main pass which is where I am walking through, it forms at first like an rect-line shaped S, from a topview perspective, walking is just like a go left then right situation, so I do the then there is a small forum, with some seats also empty and the other side of the stores, then following that “right” pass that we get on it extends far more until the end of the building with some others small stores closed or empty until I reach a dining room where there are fast food stores, pizzas, hamburgers, sandwiches, subways “tortas”, etc. https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/a-world-of-deaf-ears/ Tue, 09 Mar 2021 07:15:29 +0000 https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/a-world-of-deaf-ears/ A world of deaf ears. And me, an empty shell of emotions, I don’t just resonate, but I can, my experiences, my sensations… barely human, What else could it be? What else can I be? What am I? Who am I? Recurrent questions still without definitive answers, so far I have been living in the dreams of others, surfing the reality and their deepest desires, this writing is not me, nor by my ego, I am I guess you could say synchronized, I am me, my ego, and more than that, things that are unknown to myself even, it has been a while since the last writing, I just didn’t felt it, now I under these circumstances I feel like someone is playing games with me, the paranoia kicks in and the synchronization is partially lost or lowered, the paranoia leaves and the bond becomes strong again, when I write my ego is lost or disappears, it is quite literally an ego death, I imagine a lot of other creators, specially artist experience the same but with a different qualia of the experience, wonder if it can be put in anything beyond words. https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/outside-the-tao-outside-the-dharma-released-from-the-ties-of-destiny-at/ Mon, 18 Jan 2021 22:10:06 +0000 https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/outside-the-tao-outside-the-dharma-released-from-the-ties-of-destiny-at/ Outside the Tao, outside the dharma, released from the ties of destiny, at last, free… A transcendental of morality Moksha. Do forget everything I said before, because that wasn’t really me, I was chained, by my sister, by my own destiny, by my own ignorance of myself, nothing is really true, it is just true at a personal level, and some people do happen to commonly agree in what we call the human experience, that’s a person, but that is just my perspective of, people, what do you think? https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/los-humanos-somos-siluetas-en-la-eternidad/ Mon, 18 Jan 2021 22:05:27 +0000 https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/los-humanos-somos-siluetas-en-la-eternidad/ Los humanos somos siluetas en la eternidad. (Not true, unless you want it to be true.) https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/there-is-no-punishment-and-there-is-no-price-just-be-who-you-are-be-genuine/ Mon, 18 Jan 2021 01:05:58 +0000 https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/there-is-no-punishment-and-there-is-no-price-just-be-who-you-are-be-genuine/ There is no punishment and there is no price, just be who you are, be genuine, true at least to yourself. https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/reality-disolves-everyday/ Tue, 29 Dec 2020 19:55:52 +0000 https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/reality-disolves-everyday/ Reality disolves everyday. https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/you-dont-want-to-control-your-mind-you-want-to-dance-with-it-to-experience/ Sat, 26 Dec 2020 19:49:35 +0000 https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/you-dont-want-to-control-your-mind-you-want-to-dance-with-it-to-experience/ You don’t want to control your mind, you want to dance with it, to experience existence, to be and not to be. https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/ahora-se-que-no-estoy-cansado-de-vivir-solo-estoy-cansado-de-no-estar-contigo/ Sat, 26 Dec 2020 16:24:39 +0000 https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/ahora-se-que-no-estoy-cansado-de-vivir-solo-estoy-cansado-de-no-estar-contigo/ Ahora se que no estoy cansado de vivir, solo estoy cansado de no estar contigo. https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/who-are-you-within-your-own-mind-are-you-your-mind-what-does-the-mirror-tells/ Fri, 25 Dec 2020 21:37:30 +0000 https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/who-are-you-within-your-own-mind-are-you-your-mind-what-does-the-mirror-tells/ Who are you within your own mind? Are you your mind? What does the mirror tells you? https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/un-dia-sin-sombras-una-noche-sin-oscuridad-que-falta-porque-mi-vacio-no-es/ Mon, 14 Dec 2020 04:32:05 +0000 https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/un-dia-sin-sombras-una-noche-sin-oscuridad-que-falta-porque-mi-vacio-no-es/ Un día sin sombras, una noche sin oscuridad ¿Qué falta? ¿Porqué mi vacío no es oscuro? Quiero descansar, quiero ser feliz ¿Porque no puedo hacerlo? Todo lo que veo, todo lo que siento es el cielo diurno, azul y blanco a los ojos del humano. No me da paz ni tranquilidad, solo esta ahí, en mi inconmensurable y resiliente dolor. Would you look at the void? What would you do? https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/absolutely-none-of-this-is-real-none-of-my-experiences-none-of-what-i-see-or/ Wed, 09 Dec 2020 21:40:23 +0000 https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/absolutely-none-of-this-is-real-none-of-my-experiences-none-of-what-i-see-or/ Absolutely none of this is real, none of my experiences none of what I see or conceive as real is, I know this, I know this is the truth, but I keep up the illusion because it is easier to get by this way, to live, to exists, to comprehend, reality and everything, and this is not just me, I hope it is, but I don’t know if it is, my fear is that it is like this for every human in this world, the mediocrity, the easiness of this world has slowly strangling our mind, our imagination, our will, our dreams, and yet we keep the illusion going, why, why can’t I shut it off? https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/el-universo-es-un-ejercicio-de-consciencia-en-si-mismo-de-un-ser-con-mucho-mas/ Mon, 07 Dec 2020 21:49:47 +0000 https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/el-universo-es-un-ejercicio-de-consciencia-en-si-mismo-de-un-ser-con-mucho-mas/ El universo es un ejercicio de consciencia en si mismo, de un ser con mucho más conocimiento que solo el humano, los humanos por otra parte somos un experimento de este ser, pequeños autómatas alquímicos con consciencia y un cuerpo físico, sus ojos están sobre nosotros pues busca entendernos y saber que es lo que podemos hacer, el límite del potencial humano, pues busca comprenderse a sí mismo también, el universo, yo, soy un nexo de información entre estas consciencias, siendo Lain y siendo yo con este aspecto físico en este mundo material. https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/i-am-actually-mastering-the-art-of-doing-absolutely-nothing-a-day-so-i-can-surf/ Fri, 04 Dec 2020 23:00:46 +0000 https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/i-am-actually-mastering-the-art-of-doing-absolutely-nothing-a-day-so-i-can-surf/ I am actually mastering the art of doing absolutely nothing a day so I can surf through the exercise of consciousness and get as soon as posible to dream :) https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/i-am-the-strongest-and-for-that-very-reason-i-must-remain-in-silence-since-my/ Wed, 02 Dec 2020 23:58:59 +0000 https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/i-am-the-strongest-and-for-that-very-reason-i-must-remain-in-silence-since-my/ I am the strongest, and for that very reason I must remain in silence since my voice is the loudest. https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/i-was-running-as-fast-as-i-could-not-out-of-fear-but-out-of-will-for-a/ Fri, 20 Nov 2020 05:41:47 +0000 https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/i-was-running-as-fast-as-i-could-not-out-of-fear-but-out-of-will-for-a/ I was running, as fast as I could, not out of fear, but out of will, for a decision made, it was me giving me a chance, a shot at happiness and I was feeling it flow through me I was taking it, and then I hit a dense, brick, wall, and now, I am in shambles, my determination is just a fragile broken glass under my empty dragging corpse. https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/there-is-a-burning-fire-incandescent-yet-finite-its-consuming-me-and-my/ Mon, 16 Nov 2020 08:14:18 +0000 https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/there-is-a-burning-fire-incandescent-yet-finite-its-consuming-me-and-my/ There is a burning fire, incandescent, yet finite, it’s consuming me and my mind, is not rage, is not pain, but love and with each breath that I take my touch, my sense of self fades away, the certainty becomes uncertain, all that because I fail at expressing myself. I feel me slowly converting into a volcano. And my back, in my back I sense the weight of the world, I was getting used to itt, but now, anew I feel and increasingly stinging sensation… and I am just tired of the imponent mountain I have to climb… tired of everything, anhelating the sweet void, I can barely breathe, my strength leaves me, is this how it feels to die? https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/virtuality-virtualidad/ Wed, 28 Oct 2020 20:42:46 +0000 https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/virtuality-virtualidad/ Virtuality / Virtualidad (?) En una reflexión sobre la situación actual, el encierro voluntario domiciliario, me hizo observar y recordar un poco la época en la que yo era un adolescente, allá a los quince, en el 2012, hace ya bastantes años desde mi perspectiva actual, tenía esta idea de que todo lo que importaba para mi, todo lo que valoraba de alguna forma debía que ser real, eran los inicios de la era digital, o más bien los inicios de su accesibilidad y popularización, existía este chat, live (? https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/y-las-flores-menguantes-como-la-luna-en-el-cielo-purpurea-su-mirada-perdida-y/ Fri, 23 Oct 2020 18:06:49 +0000 https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/y-las-flores-menguantes-como-la-luna-en-el-cielo-purpurea-su-mirada-perdida-y/ Y las flores menguantes como la luna en el cielo, purpurea su mirada perdida y difusa en la oscuridad de la noche. Un día vacío, una vida vacía, pero sin ser nada, siempre elusivo de la ausencia de existencia, excepto cuando la mirada se pierde y los campanales se cierran, más allá de la oscuridad, más allá del vacío se encuentra la nada indescriptible, inimaginable y atemorizante, inexistente ser. Abres los ojos, despiertas de nuevo, otra mañana, otro día sin sueños. https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/my-heart-hurts-and-there-is-nothing-for-the-ominous-pain/ Sun, 18 Oct 2020 18:06:14 +0000 https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/my-heart-hurts-and-there-is-nothing-for-the-ominous-pain/ My heart hurts, and there is nothing for the ominous pain. Just the songs of sorrow to purge it away. https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/i-have-found-my-paradox-i-am-a-wind-spirit-yet-so-much-more-a-nomad-in/ Sat, 17 Oct 2020 18:48:36 +0000 https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/i-have-found-my-paradox-i-am-a-wind-spirit-yet-so-much-more-a-nomad-in/ I have found my paradox, I am a wind spirit, yet so much more, a nomad in clearer terms, that prevents me form attaching to people, yet, what I desire most is companionship, real connections, camaraderie, crewmates to sail beyond the stars into infinity. But I am here on my isolation capsule unable and unwilling to get out, now however, I am aware and I can evolve, and I can keep moving forward and solve my paradox. https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/can-you-imagine-if-a-tree-had-eyes-always-seeing-the-same-picture-everything/ Sat, 17 Oct 2020 17:52:58 +0000 https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/can-you-imagine-if-a-tree-had-eyes-always-seeing-the-same-picture-everything/ Can you imagine if a tree had eyes? Always seeing the same picture, everything moves around it but it never will, and will never get to experience anything beyond that. https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/sobre-suicidio/ Sat, 17 Oct 2020 17:52:36 +0000 https://gemini.novoa.nagoya/blog/cyberespacio/sobre-suicidio/ No sabía porque mi comportamiento era como el del viento… nómada, un viajero, y sin embargo estancado en este lugar no me gusta dejar raíces, porque nunca permaneceré en un sitio por mucho tiempo, porque mi hogar es el camino. No tengo miedo ni problema con que la vida no tenga ningún sentido, de hecho estoy completamente de acuerdo con eso, desde una perspectiva de diseño me parece una decisión excelente.